The Never There

And if your eyes start burnin
Or your ears start to ring
Know im imagining your face
On just about everything
And hearing your voice
From every source of sound
But its all in vain

Thats why i cant sleep
Thats why its you that i need
And if i ever go a moment
Without you on my mind
Than strike me down where i stand
Put knives through my hands
Know ive made a mistake
Every moment im not
In regret of hurting you

And if your eyes start burnin
Or your ears start to ring
Know im imagining your face
On just about everything
And hearing your voice
From every source of sound
But its all in vain

Thats why im out in the desert
Or caught under heavy rain
Trying to punish this horrid thing
That i call my body, its insane
And the things it'd do if i let it get to
You and the safe place you are now
You and how much better off
You are without, me

And if your eyes start burnin
Or your ears start to ring
Know im imagining your face
On just about everything
And hearing your voice
From every source of sound
But its all in vain

The more that i see
Your face instead of theirs
The more i hear your voice
Instead of their tears
And crys of how i should
Be getting better and moving on
Well i cant, and i wont
This is how i am to be now

The clock never stopped
But maybe it shouldve
I shouldve never done those things
But you know that i wouldve
You know what i was
To do before i even did
Why'd you bring this on yourself
Why'd you let me kid
That i would change or get better
Its all over now
The never ever there is
The sweetest sound now

And if your eyes start to burn
Or your ears start to ring
Let me say that im sorry
But those are just the things
That happen when i do
These things that i do
This is how i am to be now
Without you
 

Author's Note

Unmodified, typed as it flows.