Are You Okay?

Ask yourself, are you okay? It's okay to say no.

Are You Okay?

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I don’t always tell the truth.

I lie sometimes.

Mostly to three words.

“Are you okay?”

I get asked that most days.

By one person in particular.

I think he knows I lie about it too.

I’ve been told to say no.

I’m scared to.

I’m so used to lying and saying “I’m fine”.

This time I’m not actually fine. 

I’ve been really shaky.

And just getting in my head.

I haven’t been feeling like myself for the past week.

My muscles keep twitching.

I just can’t focus.

I was encouraged to say no.

Honestly, I’m terrified to say no.

I’ve never said no to him about this.

He knows at least one thing.

But he directly asked me.

To make me aware of why I rush when I play music.

You told me I should say no.

You said you’re going to today.

I don’t know if I will though.

I’m scared for my lesson.

I haven’t been doing good recently.

I know I’m not the only one though.

I love playing in an ensemble on stage.

Not alone though.

I get too focused on everything that could go wrong. 

I hate it.

I just wish sometimes I wasn’t like this.

I wish I could do things without worrying.

It’ll get better,

Right?

Maybe I will say no, 

Maybe I won’t.

I still have a couple of days to decide that.

I’ll figure it out,

Right?