Not Again

hating yet loving that person

All I can do is laugh
at you when I think of
all the pain you are going
through.

I may sound mean, but
not my fault you choose to
do things the way you do.

It's these words that come
to mind 'the grass isn't always
greener on the other side.' Awh,
what's wrong baby you think I'd be
nice after what you have done to me?

You put me in a void that does not
have an escape from you. I guess
this is my payment for ever hurting
you. So what should be done to you?
I know the misery that you now
feel sounds good enough for me.
Don't you?

It is not about getting even or
settling the score, it is just how
our emotions seem to soar!

To put on a happy face when you
are near takes a lot out of me 'cause
all I want to do is just be there. Guess this
is what life has bestowed upon us, it's ashame
to because I sure as hell still love you.