In my heart there is a void.
Nothing can fill it and
Only sincere words drown.
What good am I?
How long do I have before I release this fantasy?
2 years? 10 years?
I suffocate myself with these lies
That I have taught myself to believe in.
How long do I have before the truth eats me alive?
Why is it that no one will extend out their hand to me
To return the favor that I have pledged for them?
I cannot love anyone for
Embarrassment colors their faces once I am near them.
Standards are risen higher because they are afraid of mockery,
Afraid of me welcoming them to my world.
Release me from this dream that has binded me down to hell.