Pseudo delirium effect

Restless parades of upcoming doubts are shooting my introspective soldier with blanks. 

Cracked lips are now struggling with pseudo consternation screams. 

How to abandon the meridian of upcoming botheration?

Maybe there is a thread in this world dominated by a possessive porcelain marionette?

Maybe there are birds tired of the celestial infinity?

I don't even know anymore...

The world praised my gentle talent to create deliriums many years ago. 

They call me Nono. My midwife's first words after the premier blink of my down-turned eyes were: "No, no."

She fainted down like a limp flamingo suffering from Stendhal syndrome when she first saw me.

Obviously I was meant to be a total disaster. Or just a fossilized museum attraction captivated for future generations of deadlock mindsets.

I was never stuck in the routine to worry day by day about affection or affiliation.

I was simply not qualified for taking the magnifier and catching the last string of despair.

I eliminated the passing time signature. 

I didn't care about the essence. 

There was simply nothing to worry about except the loss of everything mentioned.

So I created placebos for everything.

Even the Man that comes around passed me. I considered it as a very ignorant act of misconception.

Or maybe I was already gone... 

Reviews

[Rene Salinas]

I remember a class I had one at university making music in computers by coding the sounds in . I know it sounds boring, in fact it is boring, but the teacher always use to say "is like a corridor of chameleons". I think what she meant although not sure, is like the sound is never quite as it seems, creating doubt and consternation. This is one of the many writings I have read from you and I can start to see how the dimension of the things we think they are but maybe they are not as a common thread.

Welcome the what is not! to be suspended in semi - life by your anti - being. Christopher Hitchens.

Thankyou!

[Jeannette Lunete]

Thank you very much Rene . I am glad that you understand the concept of my blur acts of expression.
P.S. It's not boring, it is a quite interesting theory, to find myself in. And thank you for bringing up one of my favourite quotes. :)

[Rene Salinas]

Well if you haven't already watch some of Christopher Hitchens arguments with theologians on youtube he was a ferocious characther very clever

[Einstein Noodle]

i agree with April .. not a psuedo experience at all .. its like checked out .. had enough .. no more can be done to me .. wow! how does one come back from such a place?? love especially the first line .. second, third .. heck! there is meat in every line .. and great use of language .. nice one
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[Jeannette Lunete]

Thanks Einstein Noodle. There is a lot of denying and delusion collected in the nature of ths character. So the "pseudo" in the title was meant to put the paradox and mess decently in the spotlight. However I am glad that you like it. :)

[AprilRN1210]

not sure how "pseudo" this delirium is.. sounds pretty believable to me.. those doubts sure do have a way of tainting the past, the present, and the future if not careful.. I love your skillful use of language to add power to the imagery and emotion.. another well written piece that stimulated my mind as well as tugged on those heartstrings... well done!

[Jeannette Lunete]

Thanks a lot April for this delightful words. I am glad that you enjoyed the journey of Nono-the walking bag of confusion. :)

[AprilRN1210]

you're welcome.. and yep.. got the confusion loud and clear :)