ONE DAY,WHEN IM OLDER...

IM NOT AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE,BUT I AM ASHAMDED AT THE THOUGHT.THE YOUNG FEMALE THAT I AM,AND THE INDEPENDANT WOMAN I ASPIRE TO BE,ARE VERY SIMILAR IN COMPARISON.THE ONLY DIFFERENCE THERE WILL BE,MY AGE AND POSSIBLY MY HEIGHT.BUT WHEN IM OLDER,ILL BE TOLD I NEED A "MAN." I AM OFTENTOLD THAT NOW.AND THEN PEOPLE WILL ASK ME ABOUT KIDS.I DONT LIKE KIDS.I CANT REALLY IMAGINE ME,"ON MY OWN IN THE WORLD" BECAUSE I WONT BE.WOULD IT BE NICE TO HAVE SOMEONE TO GO TO?OF COURSE;IT WOULD BE NICE NOW TO HAVE SOMEONE TO CALL AND PULL AN ALNIGHTER WITH RIGHT NOW.BUT THAT WONT BE HAPPENING ANYTIME SOON.YOU KNOW, ONE THING THAT I THINK PREVENTS ME FROM WANTING THAT ALL THE TIME,IS THAT,THAT OTHER PERSON;THAT OTHER SPIRIT/SOUL WILL BE THERE.ALL THE TIME.THATS A PROBLEM,BECAUSE I HATE CLINGY GUYS!THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE.RARE TO GET A MOMENT TO YOURSELF.ITS WEIRD,BECAUSE IM USING AN EXAMPLE,THAT PEOPLE DONT GET ALL THE TIME.BUT ITS FUNNY BECAUSE IM DESCRIBING SOMEONE I EXPERIENCED THIS WITH.MAYBE ONE DAY,ILL WANT THAT.BUT I DOUBT IT BECAUSE IM NOT CHANGING ANYTHING ABOUT WHO I AM.THEN AGAIN,I COULD BE WRONG.ILL KNOW ONE DAY;WHEN IM OLDER...

                       -ALIEAH...