Monster

I recently watched Thor for the first time and have seen Captain America: Civil War a couple times, so... here's what my brain came up with. Potential spoilers-ish.

Am I cursed?

Flesh becomes ice,

Eyes burn with the blood-chilling fire of Hell

And I realize

That I am more than what you have told me.

No son of yours;

I am a child of darkness,

The treacherous shadow of your glory,

Monster,

Monster,

The fiend

That parents tell their children about at night.

Ready to comply.

Yes,

I will be the nightmare.

I will be the shadow,

I will be the devil of Death

Because this angel has already fallen,

Fallen,

Fallen.

Broken wings

And broken heart,

Did you ever really love me

Or was it all a lie?

I can twist words to my will

But you twist my very soul,

Wrenching heartstrings,

Warping thoughts

I can’t trust my own mind.

I am the monster

I see lurking in the mirror,

Waking up with blood on my hands

Can you wipe out that much red?

I will wipe it away,

I will erase the past

I will destroy it all

Until I am the only monster left

And then I will be gone,

The fiend inside will perish

And I will become what you have always pretended me to be.

But the memory remains,

Haunting,

Torturing.

That wasn’t me,

But I still did it.

I remember all of them.

How can I escape?

Is there any hope at all?

I don’t know if I’m worth all this.

Deep down

I will always be a monster;

The horrors are a part of me,

And they will never go away.

I am naught

But a stolen relic,

A weapon,

The tool of your destruction.

Cold-blooded,

Murderer,

Monster,

Monster.

There is no place for love in me now.

So don’t try to redeem

The broken pieces of a heart

That was frozen

And shattered when it fell.

Author's Note

Loki... Bucky... DA FEELS BE REALS!!!!!!

(Sorry. That's my inner maniacal fangirl rearing its over-analytical head.) I have not seen Thor: The Dark World yet, so please, no spoilers, but if anyone would like to nerd out with me about this, I would THORoughly enjoy it. :) And don't be hatin' on my puns.

Reviews

[LastMonth]

Look, I know that this is about Loki and everything!
But somehow this really reminds me of Gollum (Lord of the Rings).
In the end of the 2nd movie he had a conversation, basically with himself. Finally he surrendered to his 'Darker' side and embraced his monstrosity.

This is well written, sometimes you just want to be what people already made you to be in their minds. Poor Loki didn't have a chance.

I like the Italic 'thoughts', in a way they are all thoughts, but something about them is different. More personal, private, intimate perhaps..? I can almost vividly hear it, a crowd of voices chanting it. With all the disdain and scorn that can be expected.

Good one.

[AliciaB]

Thank you! Yes, I know all about Gollum... I'm glad that you could find another interpretation of this poem (especially one related to Lord of the Rings!) This poem is indeed about Loki, but it's also about Bucky Barnes (Steve Rogers' best friend, who is the Winter Soldier and is forced into performing horrible acts of murder, etc. by evil Hydra agents who use mind control on him.) Most of the italicized parts are actual quotes from various Marvel movies, spoken by these two characters. And others are just "thoughts," as you said. Thank you very much for the review! Glad you liked it!

[DRAGO]

nice job ___________________________________________

[Centipedle]

I always love reading your work when it comes to your inspiration. Loki is one of my mother favorite characters xD I'm not much of a superhero person but I do like Iron man, spiderman and a few others.

Thanks for the awesome read!

[AliciaB]

Thank you so much! Yeah, I have recently become hopelessly obsessed with Marvel superheroes... it's bad (but also awesome.) Thanks for the review!

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

Woah! I have not seen Thor but brothers have and they keep talking about it all the time, so well i kinda know big chunks of the overall plot.
Loved your intriguing, eloquent piece of art!
And thoroughly enjoyed it!

[AliciaB]

Thank you very much!

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

You are welcome.

[Raylene]

I love this truly the emotion of abandoned love and nothing left but a shell of a human is amazing your words are just well fantastic truly the horror and reality of this is just great I applaud you.

[AliciaB]

Thank you very much!

[Raylene]

Anytime my dear

[Elmarie]

A view from one window of a very battered soul. I personally do not have a TV but have seen Thor and Captain America. This poem steered me in a very different direction. I thought it was a fine piece of writing. The doing that will never be undone like most things in life we can not change it. But that does not mean we can necessarily live with it. Post traumatic stress is something that even the perpetrators suffer from.

Blessings

El

[AliciaB]

Thank you!

[GalaxyGhost]

Fangirls unite! I love Loki and Tom Hiddleston! I love the heartfelt tone and I love how you wrote this! You need a medal for this!

[AliciaB]

YES!!! :)
From the first Avengers movie:
Loki: I have an army.
Tony Stark: We have a Hulk.
Loki: My army is made of fangirls.
Tony: Crap.

Thank you very much for the lovely comments.

[GalaxyGhost]

You're welcome!