Empty

I want to feel complete
Or happy at least
I can't compete
I don't want to unleash the beast
The beast inside of me has no feelings
It eats away at my soul
Tells me I'm not worthy of living
Just let go
White lighter in my pocket
Destiny is doomed
Don't give me the key to the door I'll lock it
My heart is slowly being consumed
Take away the pain please
I can't take anymore of this madness
Happiness has a cost and I can't afford the fees
Why must I be full of sadness
I feel empty sometimes for no reason at all
I can't explain the emptiness
But if I had to find a synonym it would be an internal abyss
And I can't hold on any longer I just want to fall