Lapse in strength: The cemetary murdered me.

I felt nothing upon standing above you...
If that's even where they put you.
Closure seems to have fled the scene,
Leaving me to obsess over your peace.
I wish you could just absolve back to me,
Pretend your premature ending was a dream.

I wish I had known that you were fading,
I would have done everything to prevent it.
Time has a nasty way of destroying my serenity,
It's selfish and takes everything away from me...
If only I had a sign that you were doing fine,
Parted beyond the shards that looked like stars...

I could breathe easy, I could be okay.
It's been ages since my breaths been deep,
Shallow winces of memory claw away at me.
If I could have, I would have taken your place.
I would have spiraled down the abyss alright.
All that holds structure fails right before me,
It's exhausting trying to put my world back together.

Give me a sign that you're alright...
That peace has enveloped your spirit,
I pray you are cocooned in light.
Your spirit guided me so far in the
Short time you had to teach me
All you knew of being strong.
I am strong... I am strong...
I am trying to be strong,
Without you. 

Reviews

[Kaylor Mason]

Wowww . . . when I lost the my grandfather, the man who raised me, at 11 years old, it was exactly like this. To make it worse, I was lied to--they told me he was gonna be ok, and I believed he was only a little sick. The cancer in him had other ideas, and he died without even giving me a chance to say goodbye. (His sudden death even surprised the doctors.)
This poem is exquisite, and it brings literal tears to my eyes . . .

To this day, I REFUSE to walk in that damn cemetery where he was laid to rest. I hope he understands . . .

[The White Wolf]

"I am trying to be strong without you"....aren't we all? It seems we never know how far they have fallen away until it is too late. Wonderfully done, my friend.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was really sad. I know it is hard to lose someone. I know it is because I have lost a lot of people within the last ten months. It is scarring...especially if they are really young...it will always hurt....because you would love to take their place, but you can not. They wouldn't want you to be sad. This was really great though. I enjoyed reading it. Thanks for sharing.