Lithium.

A fight, to feel. A fight, not to feel. A fight, jut to fight.

The tingling sensation of life is starting to fade,

I feel no elation at the end of the day. Wake up

each afternoon to repeat the same old same.

Rise shivering, cold, and drained. I suppose I

could reach for a hand, or an ear to listen to all

I conceal inside, although its easier to just

hide in yesterday. The wounds are festering,

breaking, and bleeding into who I want to be.

 

I've lost my reflection, my mind as well...

I am stuck within the twisting vines of mystery,

my misery. I would take everyone with me, but

compassion has yet to flee me. If I wasn't so tainted

I would turn to the light, or a scripture dictating my

fate, swearing that I'll be okay. I've become too hurt

to believe in any ease of pain. I searched high, and low

for a release, I wish for a bathtub full of lithium.

 

I would reach my hands above my head, searching for

the sun. I'd allow the warmth to rape, then take me.

Drag me below the dirt, and keep me prisoner.

I'd surrender all fights, purse my lips and await the

next dose. Take all my feelings, my memories, and pain.

Destroy me, and bury my shame. Wrap the worlds hatred

around my throat, tighten, then throw me into hell.

When you hear a snap, release, and quickly walk away.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[MetBySunlight]

I love it, you have used powerful words that reflect the mood perfectly. Well done and keep on writing (:

[Kaylor Mason]

I love the part where it says you'd love to take everyone with you, but compassion is the last thing to go. That's very, very real--and I'll testify to it under oath. The way you have such pain and suffering, yet you're still not heartless enough to spread it to other people by tossing your mental/emotional baggage into someone else's lap for them to deal with--I feel exactly like that every waking moment of every day, even now. I probably always will. Also, the part of a bathtub full of lithium was brilliant (living through heavy chemistry is always the way to go) :)) This piece has struck a deep chord within me: it is superb writing, an honest condition of the universal human spirit. It's terrifying to think of how many people are out there, lost and alone and hurting and scared, ain't it? Thank you for this work, sir; it means an awful lot :)
---------------- Kailer

[joshua deathdealer]

lol... the things I could do with "a bathtub full of lithium". lol anyways..Another great write and again I like the careless attitude. The..You've already kill me inside.. who cares about this feeble carcass that I dwell in...that can of attitude..I love it.

[Boldpen]

Truly heart throbbing.
It almost stopped my heartbeat. Very strong usage of words and the expressions were very intelligently used.
Great Work!