All is Fair... or Not.

Story*: means Journal entry :)

Today has been rather, calming. I decided to change it up and write like I do in my actual paper diary. I figured it could be better and I might write here every so often...we shall see. Now, I'm not going into detail about my entire life. I'm sure many people don't do that and I'm sure many, many people could care less. I'm just writing because I like to and it helps when I'm feeling kind of empty and/or lonely. I might go off into detail about some rather important things but that depends on how I feel at the moment.

 

     Now, I'm typically a homebody. I would rather stay at my apartment and watch Awkward. than go out with friends. Speaking of friends, mine are usually busy just like I am but they seem to make time to go out where as I don't. Hmm, maybe I should? I turned twenty-two about two weeks go, and it was pretty boring, but it didn't bother me necessarily. I honestly don't know that I'll ever regret that I didn't do much in my early 20s. However, what did bother me was that everyone else said that it would bother me when I turn thirty-two. That I will reminiscence on my life and realize that I didn't take advantage of all "fun opportunities", but loads has happened in the past two years that has changed me forever. I can hardly remember when I use to go out with friends and stay up 'til God knows when...but it feels like a past life. I'm just on a different path, I suppose. I enjoy working more than sleeping in, saving money more than spending, and preparing an outing with friends rather than going on a spontaneous movie night. Actually... reading all those characteristics seems like I'm describing an extremely boring, unexciting, simple as ABC type of person. I guess, I don't want to be seen that way, nor do I want to be described as a no self control type of person neither. If anything I just want to be seen as me.

 

I have to figure who I am, though.

 

 

 

"...plant beauty in your heart."

         -FRED DE WITT VAN AMBURGH