Confusion

I swallow my blood
While the arrows in my head go deeper
As I fall onto the ground
I see my life before my own very eyes.
The sky is fading into darkness
Is this just a dream?
Or have I really gone crazy?
Tell me please
Give me help before I'm gone.
I'll be gone by dawn
Just let me be
There's no point in saving me.

My craving to be dead is so strong
The days turned long after I'm gone
It doesn't really matter
It's silly to think you cared
How will you feel when I'm gone?
I'll be smiling when I look down on you, you'll be on the ground frowning for me
I've never been happier.