I Would've Cried. But I'll Write A Poem Instead

A Poem by Alexander143

sometimes, tears do the better talking. this time, i hope they will do my better writting...

I have not been this sad in such long a while-
That I though my face
would soon pick a smile.
But I know that I cannot lie to myself anymore.
I'm depressed again. I've walked this path before.

I wish I would say I was sad, but I'd be lying,-
Cuz pain's smaller than the reason I'd be crying.
So I will turn my every
tear and bits of rage-
Into ink, then write down how I feel on this page.

'They say that every cloud has some silver lining.
Well, they haven't seen
the clouds I'm seeing;
If big boys do not cry
then I am really unique.
And if 'unique' is not
normal, then I'm a freak!!!

They say 'never put all
your eggs in 1 basket.'
But I did worse on the
Friday that you and I met.
Its like I put my eggs in a worn-out basket and-
Put that basket in some blind cripple's weak hand.

I kept playing back how
everythig fit perfectly,
Us; teasing fate. Like you were meant for me.
I couldn't stop smiling
even when I got home.
I even broke more rules
and wrote you a poem.

True, I was scared it was too good to be true,
But I somehow believed
that we'd pull through.
I was ready to fight
whatever odds I'd face.
But I can't throw a blow against your happiness.

I may love you more than him, but its okay,
To me, its been about you from the first day.
I'll not be around much,
because I really do care.
But if you'll need me, I
hope that I'll be there.

I heard that to cry about a girl is just being wack.
But I'd rather be damned than hold the tears back.
I bade you farewell with wet eyes and a smirk.
But I didn't agree that we really couldn't work.

You asked me to keep you close in my pieces,
But there's not much to
say about past wishes.
But, sure as rain,I wrote this poem just for you.
I'm really sorry if you wont find it very beautiful.'

Melting my sorrow, my
wishes and my regrets,
I channeled my pain out
through my eye sockets.
I tapped each drop into a fountain pen I love alot,
Scribbled something and
this is the poem I got.

Keep Smiling