Tales around the family reunion camp fire. Grampa plants the seed of thought in the soils of Grace's imagination.
A well-fed flickering fire held the family together like the nucleus of
a group-1 element. The warmth and scent of the fire blended with the
nocturnal animals' songs to create a monotonous, almost dead, but
beautiful aura. Silence. The fire's head bowed as the night's breeze
whispers past with the speed of a policeman surveying
a low-crime-neighbourhood. The owl kept chatting with the glows eyes of
the lit night sky, which seemed uninterested and almost about to look
away. The full-moon caressed the earth with the attention of a careful
barber man, only leaving sheltered soils untouched. A man, well
invested in years and experience, I looked up to the sky, then back at
my wife_a wrinkled, no longer as beautiful, but more than twice as
worthy a companion as she was when we were young and lively_, then at my
son_Mark_, his wife_Jude_, my daughter_Martha_and three grand
children_Zack, Grace and Jane.
'Grampa,' Grace's voice was
coated in sweetness, as it pierced through the silence like a sabre
sword through boneless flesh. In a heartbeat, she commanded the
attention of my soul, a part of me that was never too old to race
through the universe a couple of times, before realizing that there was
no finish line. Grace was Martha's only child. Standing a bare 0.9
meters and 5 years of age_excluding the 12 months that she spent in my
daughter, Martha's, womb. I'd always known that her brain developed at
twice the rate of an average child. She wasn't average. She was Grace
Mumba. 'Where do people go when they die?' She completed her sentence.
She was full of sentences that ended in question marks. She's even use
them to answer questions sometimes. Martha, my only daughter, looked
at the product of her kids-play, with the eyes of a fish eagle scanning
low waters. My daughter was 26, with a daughter and still not married.
Grace was a gifted 'mistake,' many thought. But thinking again, many of
us might have been worse. Everyone looked at Grace now. Some with
excitement, some, expectation, some wonder and the others, with eyes. I
looked at her too. I had been looking at her from the mention of my
name, 'Grampa.' Joyce, the woman whose face I saw on each morning
of my 47-year-long married life, stole a glance at Grace, before she
fixed her eyes on me. Her hazel, daring eyes were one of the very few
parts of her body that had the constancy of change. They always told me
stories. This time, however, they seemed to have wanted to hear mine.
'Grace!' Martha tried to rebuke her daughter with the command of a
wounded lieutenant on a battlefield. She thought Grace was too young to
hear stories of death. I thought she was innocent and bold to start one.
My wife, like every other person within earshot, had her thought. They
were theirs nonetheless. My worries were Zack, my 8-year-old grandson
and his 8-months-old sister, who seemed to pay attention to all she
heard and ready to speak it all out when the time was right. 'No. Please.' I spoke in Grace's defense, who seemed not to have needed it at all, 'It's okay.'
Mark, my 37-year-old son was the oldest and biggest member of the
family. His left arm hang on Jude's shoulder. Jude was my
daughter-in-law. She was just as much family as was Jane, the
8-months-old evidence of fragile life that lay in her arms. Marks was
one of those souls that looked with eyes, nothing more. He scanned the
area for clues as to what was going on. The fire minded it's own
business; feeding on wood in the oxygen, giving us light and warmth. It
rarely interrupted. In the short moment of silent looks, I cooked up
another 'Grampa story' in my 'mind's kitchen'. 'When people die,' I
said, after clearing my throat, 'They stop to be there.' I knew that
the theory merited more questions than it answered. I was getting ready
for them. Martha and Zack poked the fire. It didn't seem to mind. Maybe
it liked to be poked. Through the corner of my right eye, I could make
out a vague image of my wife. She wore another one of her smiles. Old,
but just the way I liked it. She knew what was coming. 'But
Grampa.' The voice of inexperience spoke, yet again. 'How do they just
'stop' being there?' It went without saying that Grace was as smart as
she was curious. She needed as much detail as an FBI agent from an only
suspect in a case that had no leads. 'You see, when people die,
they are buried, and then, they stop being there.' The word 'buried' was
a cause for relief to the contracted muscles on Grace's expectant face.
She was getting something. We were getting somewhere. 'But my
teacher said they go to heaven and become angels.' First-grade teachers
said anything they wish, from babies are bought from Shoprite to every
other thing that sends kids posing weird questions during family
reunions. Zack was hearing the voices around him, the fire, seeing the
figures, but he wasn't really there. He rarely was. Jane minded nothing
past the warm grip of her mother's hands and formula milk in her bottle.
Maybe this could be tonight's c amp fire story-what happens to
people when they die. I like it. Zack, among the grand children, was
supposed to know the most about this theme, but anyway, he was not used
to telling stories, he was Zack. He just looked on, confusion and wonder
all over his face like paint at a fate. I miss those fates I attended. 'My teacher used to say that too.' I said. It was true.
'Who told you that they don't stop being there then?' Grace wanted to
get to the bottom of the theme. The inspector wind dashed past again,
more determined to move past us this time. The fire bowed so low, it
almost toppled over_shooting bits of flaming woods in the air, and some
at Jude. She jumped to a start and quickly composed herself. Zack wasn't
affected, but moved within his chair, probably pretending to be more
careful. Everything was back to normal. I sipped on my hot chocolate and turned back to my grand daughter. 'I learnt when I grew older.' Grace had an astounding belief in my knowledge.
'I wish people could not just stop being there.' She was going to make a
fine actress. She was as natural as sunrise. 'I wish people could
always be there.' She seemed sorry. 'But of course Grace. People will always be there. Only different people.'
She looked at me as though telling me that she could read my mind. It's
possible that she could, besides, she was my grand daughter, as far as I
knew. 'You see. People stop being there so that others can be there.'
'But there'll never be another Grampa Sylvester.' That is my other
name. My other other name is Mumba. 'Grampa Sylvester Mumba,' but only
to my grand children. Grace always said what she felt, unlike her
mother, who found the battle between what to say and how to say it
right, hard to fight, let alone, win. Grace was as fond of me as I was
of her. She was entertaining, alive and smart. She would dance, sing and
act for me. she never had the best voice nor the most swift waist nor
best dance moves. But in her, I heard purity and saw sincerity; virtues
that would take her around the world if she'd hold on to them. Joyce
kept looking at me, then Grace, and everybody around. The switch in the
tempo of the mosquitoes reminded me that it was getting late. I knew the
perfect way to conclude the theme. After slapping themselves about for a
while, Mark and Jude excused themselves and left. They had to turn in
soon as they had other matters to attend to early the following morning.
'Grace,' I called her, as the footsteps of her aunt and uncle faded towards the back door of our family house. 'Yes Grampa.' She was calm and thoughtful. 'Do you know anything that was done by anyone that stopped being there?' 'Uhhmmm,' she had to think. She always did. 'Yes!' Remembering something in a short while calls for a sense of accomplishment. 'What is that? And, who did it?' 'My teacher said that the pyramids of Egypt were built by people of Egypt a long time ago.'
'Exactly. You see. Even if people stop being there, we can bring their
memories back to life by considering the things they did. That way, we
can be sure that at least, a part of them stays with us.' Immortality of
memories, one of the old, rusty themes that defined my life through
teenage. A poet that was determined to live on through his works. And
indeed, I will. 'Grampa.' Grace's face lightened up as would that of
a patient with an incurable disease upon learning that a cure has been
found. 'Yes Grace,' I took my chocolate mug and gobbled down the last drops of the love portion that my wife had whipped up for me. 'What have you done for when you stop being there?' I didn't know which would be the best. But I needed a more obvious and tangible thing. Poetry? Acting? Stories? What?
Joyce invited Martha to a private conversation. Joyce and I worried
about Martha more than any other child we raised. She was the last-born,
only daughter and also the more complex of our children. She deserved
the worries. 'Your mother has my blood,' Martha lingered withing
earshot. She should have wondered what her father was feeding her
daughter with. 'And you have her's. That means that you have the same
blood as I do. You see, whenever you can't see me because I don't seem
to be there, just look in the mirror. If you look hard enough, you will
see me, right front of you.' I could feel her spirit lighten. Martha had
heard this before. She slowly walked towards the house, led by Joyce. 'Mum says I have your eyes.' She smiled, flashing 'my eyes' at me.
'Hhmmm. If you have 'my' eyes, does that mean I have 'yours'?' We both
laughed. It was funny. But more so, because it was also a moment in
which we could release the tension from the thoughts and all. Grace
yawned and stretched her arms like an eagle about to take flight.
'Yep. It's time to go to bed.' I said, picking up my empty mug and
standing. The fire was almost dying. We had starved it. But then again,
maybe it didn't really mind. 'Awwww. Already? Can't we stay for
five more minutes Gramps?' That wasn't my name. The word was like a mole
in the underground soils of Grace's vocabulary, it only came out when
she knew that her odds were paper thin. It was her last resort.
'Well, we could,' I stopped, 'If you don't mind my waking up later than
shopping time tomorrow.' No sooner had I completed the sentence than she
sprang to her feet like a line's corporal at the sight of a General in a
regiment. 'I'll race you to the door!' She said as she took quick stride that graduated into a sprint.
'And I'll hand you the prize.' I lifted my brown, empty mug. She ran to
the door. I walked to the door, she eyes escorting me, as though
ensuring that I was safe. She patiently awaited her prize, holding on
to the door frame with one hand, the other, resting on her hip. A
brilliant, smart and lively young lady she'll grow up to be someday.
Black shiny hair, fair-light skin, thin eye brows, thin lips and
light-brown eyes. My eyes. She washed the prize upon receiving it.
An act that would earn a prize recipient's sanity a benefit of the
doubt. But not this time. Not when the prize was my 46-year-old coffee
mug. The first gift that joyce got me on our first anniversary.
Despite my rusty joints and hurting back, I carried Grace to the door of
the bedroom that Mark, her father, used before he learned that he was
too old to live under my roof. I stamped her forehead goodnight with a
kiss and made for my bedroom. Joyce was warming her side of the bed and
getting tired of waiting for her usual night companionship. 'It's
about time.' She whispered as soon as I stuck my face into the room. She
was 66-years-old, 6 less than I was, but could still act 25 when she
wanted to. 'Really.' I flung my coat into the washing basket,
removed my shirt and slipped on my pajamas top. I crawled into bed. 'I
thought it was about Grace.' 'She's a blessing, isn't she?' Joyce
turned to look at me. She anchored the weight of her upper body on her
right elbow and flashed her hazel eyes at me. 'The grace of Jehovah, God? An undeserved blessing.' I love mind games. I always will. 'When, you,' she hesitated. 'Stop being there, I'll stop being there too.' 'I don't think so.' I had to dispute. It's natural.
'Well, there's no complete 'us' without 'u'. And us is all there is to
me.' Joyce had always been my princess charming. Sometimes I wondered
who the charmer really was. 'You are I am You.' I meant it so much that whenever I look in the mirror and say it now, I mean it just as much. 'I love you.' She said, exposing her beautifully arranged set of teeth. 'I love you more.' I replied. 'I love you most.' I never really liked to lose, but Joyce deserved to win. 'I love you moster.' I smiled at my blessing, my grace, my wife. 'That's not a word!' She argued.
'Well, how about this,' I leaned forward and kissed her lips. They were
not as soft as they were when I first kissed them, in an empty
conference room, before a poetry show, but the kiss still served its
purpose in full_expressing words that the dictionary was too dumb to
describe. 'Then in that case, I have a whole conversation for you.'
She pulled the duvet over our heads.' I knew what that meant. It was
said in English. 'I doubt I'm going to be the listening type tonight
though.' I turned off our bed lamp. Just before Joyce began her
conversation, a picture of Grace flashed on my mind. She smiled, 'my
eyes' in her sockets. It faded. Her voice played in my head. Sweet,
innocent and lingering. 'When I'm grown, I'll live through others, for
when I stop being there.' I smiled back at thoughts of her and got ready
for Joyce's talk. Joyce and I conversed through half of the cool winter
night and slumbered through the rest of it.