I Wish I Could GIve You More

I'm sorry that the pieces of my broken heart are in too many places to love you complete.

I wish I could give you more-
Than my mouth’s every empty sound;
Words. Like abandoned shell homes.
More than the mere reality of being around.

I wish I could give you more-
Than my body; physical presence.
Than my touch and warm embrace-
Heated in the lust of every dead past instance.

I wish I could give you more-
Than gifts, my time and attention.
My voice, support, smiles and laughter.
Wish I’d give you my heart’s pure affection.

I wish you knew me way before-
The loss of every ounce of love I sought.
Before the space between spaces filled me,
Before the scent of love was eternally forgot.

See, every failed fairy tale-
Robbed my love of its mass.
And left of my heart unloving;
Like a sand less hourglass. 

Every brazenly shattered future-
Taught me how not to love;
To cherish only what’s left over,
My fading innocence; all I have.

Every end of a new beginning-
Curved a beast out of my soul;
A sweet, charming, beautiful beast.
Opposite of what you think you know.

I wish you knew me before-
I could smile and say I love you-
As I whisper praises to the next girl;
Of last night, in bed, how she was beautiful.

I wish you knew me before-
I could hug you and hold you tight-
With the very warm arms that will-
Be caressing your friend tonight.

I wish you knew me before-
I knew that forever comes and goes;
Before the hurt and nurtured lusts;
Before I felt what nobody knows.

I wish you knew me before-
The pieces of my broken heart-
Spread through my vast past.
So I could love you, not in part.

I wish you knew me before-
My tears massed into this smiley mask-
That stuck to my visage. Before being nice-
Was my poker face, and not a willful task.

But most importantly… I wish you’ll teach me-
To love you with the void space where my heart was once;
To say I love you in dead silence; with every beat of our heart;
And to be one with you; to give you my soul and inner presence.

Keep Smiling

Reviews

[Krista Weiss]

Aww!! Really amazing poem! :)

[Junert]

You know much about love.