I am sorry

My solemn apology

I lay like dead, motionless in my
bed, reminiscing,
I hold my head, stare long and
hard at the ceiling, wishing,
That I could back track my life to
our era of bliss, Relive every hug
and kiss, the loving moments that
I'm missing.

A total mess. I get up with great
effort and begin to dress.
Tears stream down my sorry face,
I look in the mirror, and staring at
me,
Is an image of my own disgrace.

I wonder how far away I am from
your picture,
Even if I can't touch your heart, I
can still feel your hurt's texture.
You hate me more that you ever
loved me, but I deserve it,
For ruining our perfect love and
pushing to infinity, our future.

I remember the times you said
you loved me.
The times I would gaze into your
eyes and see,
The snowy purity of your soul's
innocence,
And the beautiful shine of a
whole galaxy.

I wish that even if we are over,
I can still get to ask you for a
single favor,
That you don't forget my love for
you,
For it's the one emotion that'll
burn forever.

It hurts me to know that you are
now but a dream,
That when you held me in the
highest esteem,
I brazenly tore your heart apart
and I can't win it back,
And that your love for me can
only dim.

There're no words I can use to
change the past,
I'm sorry for losing your love and
your trust.
I know two things though; 'sorry'
won't bring what we had back,
And, my pain and love for you
will always last.


Keep Smiling