The blame game

Personal deep expieriance. Just inner depressed emotions and trauma evolved into wisdom and hope.

I feel like it's wrong
Yet I do like it's right
I continue to be with you
Knowing it'll lead into fights

Fights with you
And fights with my soul
I lose my dignity constantly battling with what I should do and how we are as a whole

I wonder if it's worth it
Losing my faith and my pride
How I'm suddenly this depressed lost girl, wondering from where it's derived

Are you the reason for all this?
Are you really to blame?
Maybe instead of battling with my thoughts why don't we play a game

I ask you if I changed at all
Am I really not the same?
No but I'm not because you went through this whole phase, hold up we're still playing the game

Was I there for you enough, did my anger ever provoke you to go insane?
And How is that possible when hold up we're still playing the game

Did I give up on you to quick, did my fear overpower my conscience my brain? No I followed my gut I knew it was holdup, we're still playing the game.

You betrayed my trust
You made me feel worthless. You called me every name in the book making even the words I hate you sound wordless
You make me look in the mirror and see nothing more than a dried up s**t
And I'm sorry if you're starting to feel a little guilty let me be just a little more blunt

You made me who I am today
As hard as It is to believe
I keep the scars in my heart as battle wounds to relieve
Relieve me from the pain to understand the past
A new beginning in my life learn to live like it's my last

You made me go through so much just to build me to be this way
We're done playing the game.. I've matured to much to find someone to blame

Reviews

[Silent Serenity also kn..]

First off, you will find in here you are never alone and there are many who feel as you do so always know that.....secondly thank you for the friends request....I took a year or so off but i am now back so welcome to my writing family and hope you enjoy some really bonding friendships in here

Now to what I was originally here for....your review

I must say very deeply expressed....you allowed me to enter your soul and feel the exact moment as this poem was being created.....writing is exactly that, to allow someone close enough into your soul to allow them to feel what you were feeling at the time....you did just that.....thank you for sharing I am truly impressed with your writing style and look forward to reading many more.....

[Alexa]

thank you so much for this truly empowering review. It means so much to know how much my writing can truly impact a person. But of course i need improvement,
I deeply appreciate it :)

[Misty.C]

This is so heartfelt and lovely, Pain can do two things- Break you or make you- This poem obviously states the creation of someone, I really could understand your message by your word choice, Good job!

[Alexa]

It takes a strong person to overcome such pain, but pain always has it's purpose and the girl in this poem obviously found hers. Thank you so much for the review this is what keeps me going

[jane7z]

Wow very open can feel your pain and growth in this piece.

[Alexa]

I let all my thoughts out and ended up publicizing it as a guide for others who feel the same. I really appreciate it thank you

[jane7z]

It was a great read it is our souls that we open up and put into our writings and let others glimpse into our lives

[Alexa]

I think of it not as our lives necessarily but how our lives should inspire them on how to live theirs

[jane7z]

Good point. I shouldn't assume you write your life out that's what I tend to do. Have a good night Alexa

[Cassie]

It was a good start, will this be a sequel? I'm looking forward to read the continuation. Keeep it up!

[Alexa]

Thank you so much. And it was a real event I went through so I guess we will both just have to wait and see lol

[Cassie]

Seriously? hahaha. Omg. Real life!? So cool. :)

[Alexa]

Deep reviews please. First time I've ever released my personal writing so it would be highly appreciated