On the Matter of Funerals, continuedA Chapter by Lexi I.A continuation of chapter one“Well,
that’s a relief,” Marta mutters, as grateful as I am to be inside the cathedral, away from
the bevy of curious onlookers and reporters on the other side of the door. I
nod in agreement. “I
am going to see if Mario and Luigi are here already. I’ll find you in a bit,”
Julio tells us as he directs us away from the door. “Okay,
we’ll see you inside,” I say, careful to keep a steady voice. Julio disappears into one of the hallways in search of my uncle and his son. In
the lobby, we are among those waiting to be ushered into the church, where an
organ is soberly playing a tune. The
organ’s pained notes suddenly bring me back to the present moment; my anxiety
assails me anew. I nod in greeting at those who walk past us into the church--some
familiar faces, but none of the family’s. They must already be inside. I am
still hesitant to join them, despite our delay. “Ms.
Mercanti?” A woman’s uneasy voice calls from behind, and I turn to see a
blonde, probably in her mid-forties, striding our way. She is wearing a black
skirt and white shirt, and while her appearance is impeccable, she seems
nervous. I recognize her anxiety; it’s something that the Mercanti family has
unfortunately instilled in the minds of those who have dealt with certain
members of the family. I offer the woman my sincerest smile. “Yes?”
I reply, unaware of the woman’s identity. “I...
I am Danielle Somers, and I worked with the Cathedral to organize today’s
event. I am deeply sorry for your loss,” she says, edginess tingeing her
tone. “Thank
you very much. We all appreciate it,” I add. Beside me, Marta nods and smiles kindly.
“I
hope you’ll let me know if there is anything you need. Until then, I have to
escort you to your seats so that we can start the program,” Danielle looks at
her watch, and her voice becomes a bit more relaxed. I can see the planner in her peek
through her tense exterior. “Well,
by all means, please show us to our seats.” I step aside to allow her to pass
before us. She smiles uncomfortably but moves ahead, leading the way. As we
approach the entrance into the church, an usher hands us a program. I briefly
glance at the pamphlet; my father’s tanned face peers back at me. It’s one of
only a few pictures of him, taken at one of his weddings about 15 years ago. His
then wife--I think it may have been Alexis--nagged until the man couldn't take it
anymore. She didn't last too long, as you can imagine. I neatly slip the program into my purse, and
choose to focus on my surroundings. No need to revisit the past, at least not
right now. The
sound of people’s murmuring, the organ playing and feet shuffling fills the
expanse of the cathedral. I twine my arm through Marta’s as Ms. Somers leads us down the
center aisle. Eyes turn toward us as we pass by the pews. Once again, I am amazed
by the amount of people who have shown up for my father’s funeral. I am more
surprised that I don’t recognize a good number of them. I try not to look at
the faces in the pews and to keep my eyes down, focused on my black pumps. As
we near the pews in the front of St. Peter’s, I glance up, and I see a number
of familiar faces. Some of my distant cousins and aunts sit on one side; their
fathers and husbands probably closer to the front. Some of my father’s
companions--the ones who braved the police forces, of course--are also here,
chatting amongst themselves. Some--those who know who I am--nod in greeting; I
offer a solemn smile in return. Oh, the pretenses we strive to maintain. We approach the front rows of pews. As expected,
most of the Mercanti males are crowded in the front, all of them dressed in
crisp, black suits, starched for the occasion. And there, nestled in the bevy
of blood relatives, close family and friends, I see my father’s wives: all
three of them. They are each sitting in their own row, away from one another. Would
anyone have expected any less? If anything, their presence at the funeral is an excuse to
attend the reading of the will tomorrow. Or to at least be around when it
happens. In
the second row to the left of the altar, Allegra Russo, my father’s first
wife--the one he married right before he hooked up with my mother--sits
haughtily. She is wearing all black, most likely Chanel, as she broke my
father’s account shopping at the designer’s stores. Her dark hair is pulled in
a tight chignon at the back of her head; despite our differences--and there are
many--she is formidable for her 50 years or so. She fleetingly looks in my direction, but quickly
averts her gaze. I am the other woman’s daughter, and I have never merited more
than a few moments of her time. In
the third pew to the right, sitting next to her new husband and two younger
children--not my father’s children--is Alexis Johnson, my father’s second wife.
He married her when I was ten, and they were probably together for five years,
at most. Between her coming and going, it was hard to keep track. Unlike
Allegra, Alexis was considerably nicer. She had always tried, maybe a little
too hard, to be my mother. It wasn't going to happen. She smiles at me, and I
smile back. Even at 43, she is all blonde perfection and beautiful--my father
would have not had it any other way. And
finally, in the row where I am to sit, is Lucia Mercanti, my father’s third
wife, his widow. She dabs away tears, most likely fake ones, as we approach.
Lucia is closer to my age than she was to my father’s. At 33, she hit the
jackpot when she married into Don Mercanti’s fortune. Two years later, she’s a
rich widow. I guess the CPD aren't the only ones who are celebrating. Marta
proceeds ahead of me, and I take the seat at the end of the pew, away from
Lucia. We are not, and never were on good terms. Unlike others, I saw right
through her sob story those few years ago, and it’s not worth rehashing…at
least, not today. Today
is for my father, and not for his wives. I try to turn my attention on the
occasion at hand. And as I glance up, I notice the casket for the first time
since entering the church. Surrounded by beautiful flower arrangements on all
sides, the dark mahogany casket sits closed in the front. Multitudes of white
roses cover the top of the casket. My
father’s portrait--the same one as on the program--is to the left of the
casket. Even in his pictures, he has a
smug look. His gleaming eyes and charming smile deceive others as to the person
beyond the façade. There
is shuffling on the other side of the church, in Allegra’s pew, but I
purposefully choose not to look in that direction. I know that her son, my half
brother, has arrived. I am not ready to see him yet, so I keep my eyes to the
front of the church, where Father Michael is preparing for the service. “It
seems that Nico has decided to come after all,” Marta whispers from my right,
confirming my suspicions. “It
seems that he has,” I add. We were unsure if Nicolo would show up today,
especially since the Chicago Police Department has him as one of the prime
suspects in one of the largest embezzlement cases in the last decade. But I
knew he would come. Nico was my father’s only son, and it was his duty to be
here today. Allegra must be beaming. The
voices hush as Father Michael turns to his left and signals for the choir to
start the service. As the choir strikes its first notes, Julio rounds the
corner into our pew and takes the seat next to Marta. Mario and Luigi slip into
the seats behind me. All
extraneous noise ceases, and the choir’s angelic voices initiate the prayer ceremony
for a man that’s really going to need them. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The
service passes by without a hitch. Tears are shed in all the right places, and
silence is observed in all other instances. As the ceremony draws to an end,
Father Michael calls on individuals to come and speak. Lucia is the first to
take the podium. She sniffles prettily as she talks about Paolo and what a
wonderful husband he was. Any husband who pays for so many surgeries is
probably quite wonderful. She steps down from the podium, and Dino, my father’s
cousin, gives a brief eulogy on growing up as part of the Mercanti family back
in Sicily. His anecdotes draw some subdued laughter from the crowd. Julio is
next to speak, and he has no problem detailing some of the most memorable--and
legal--times he spent with his nephew over the years. It is a lovely speech. Julio would have it no other way. He touches the casket as he passes it on his
way back to our bench. “And
now, we would like to ask Valentina Mercanti to come say a few words on behalf
of her family,” Father Michael’s deep voice resonates through the microphone.
My feet are frozen to the spot. “Go,
cara. It will be fine,” Marta
encourages me. Somehow I manage to stand up from my seat and to walk to the
stage, my speech in hand. I am nervous as I take my place behind the podium and
as I stare into the large crowd. I unfold the speech and take a deep, steadying
breath. I try to focus on the words,
anything but the people before me. “Hi.
Thank you for coming,” I start, my voice shaky. The adrenaline is rushing
through my veins, and my stomach is aflutter with anxiety and butterflies.
Shuffling and a stifled cough in the back of the church fill the silence. I
refuse to look up. “In preparing this speech today, I was ready to praise my father, just like all those who came before me, but that would not do justice for who Paolo Mercanti really was.” The first sentence is out. I keep my gaze to the paper before me. “My father, as those close to him might agree, had many flaws, like we all do. He was a man, and like all men, he made his share--or probably more than a fair share--of mistakes.” At this, a few people chuckle knowingly. I
venture a look up into the crowd; I try to focus on the back of the church, the
wall, any non-living object. It is a trick I once learned in a public speaking course. “But
even as he made mistakes, he did a few things right. He raised two children
quite well, even if he needed help here and there. He put family first, and
that is perhaps the more any father and husband can do.” At this point, I find
Nico in the front row, and offer him a sincere smile--the kind siblings share, despite their differences. Nico
smiles back from his place next to Allegra. I purposely ignore her gaze. “Um…Paolo
Mercanti had an impact on many people, and if his funeral is a statement on his
far-reaching effect, then I guess we can all see how much he influenced those
around him and those not so close to him. Even as he may have inspired a
certain level of intimidation as a result of his Sicilian upbringing, he was
also kind to those who merited it.” Half truth, half lie. His kindness had
limits. “My
father was a man of many facets, and those cannot be summed up in a few words.
We have all tried our best to do Paolo Mercanti justice, for he was a complex
man. I believe that he would be pleased to have his family and friends speak so
kindly of him and his life. He would be happy that we are here, remembering the
good memories.” I pause momentarily and take a short breath. “Thank you for joining our family today,” I
mumble the last words into the microphone and gather my paper, shoving it into
the purse. I begin to slowly step away from the podium, and suddenly, from the back of
the church, something catches my eye. A pair of green, cold eyes pierce me to
the spot on the stairs, and I falter mid-step. I can feel my blood drain from my face; I blink to
break the brief trance and quickly look away, focusing on my legs, asking them
to take me to my seat as soon as possible. I
slide into my place on the bench next to Marta, keeping my eyes on my hands, which are now
shaking. “What’s
wrong?” she whispers just loud enough for me to hear her over Fr. Michael’s
voice, who’s begun to talk about life after death, or something of the sort.
“You look like you've seen a ghost.” I
feel like I have. My heart is thundering in my ears, and I can barely contain the trembling in my hands. “It’s nothing,” I reply, careful to
steady my voice. “It’s just nerves from the speech.” I turn to Marta and force
a smile. I hope she can’t see through my guise this time. “I
hope you are right, cara,” she says
doubtfully. She turns her attention back to the priest’s sermon. I turn my
thoughts back to the emerald eyes, eyes I thought I’d seen the last of three
years ago. Oliver Ward had returned, and he was sitting no more than 10 pews
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3 Reviews Added on January 5, 2013 Last Updated on February 19, 2015 AuthorLexi I.Somewhere, MIAboutLike most people here, I aspire to weave magic with words and to create worlds where others--as well as myself, of course--can escape to. From a young age, I loved reading and joining characters--who .. more..Writing
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