What I've Been Meanig To Tell You

I never left because I wanted to play with your feelings

I left because I thought you deserved so much better than me

When you asked me to be yours, I was shocked

Because I thought you only thought of me as a friend

But I was more than happy to say yes

Because after a couple of weeks of being together

I knew you loved me

I knew you cared for me

More than anyone ever has

And that meant so much

I grew to fall in love

We argued

And it killed me

But I knew it was worth fighting than not at all

I never left because I had fallen for someone else

My attention was always towards you

You may think I turned out to be someone completely different

But really, I thought it was best to push you away

I never meant to hurt you intentionally

You were everything and more that I could ever dream of

You gave me what I needed but not what I wanted

I gave you what you wanted but not what you needed

And for that I hated myself

Because you were my best friend

Even after we separated

I never lost those feelings

I decided to keep to myself

Because I didn’t want to give you hope

On something that I didn’t know for sure would happen

I am very sorry, for the heartache that I gave you

You may think I changed

But I’ve always been myself with you

I miss you

I miss my best friend

I miss those talks at night

How you would be there when I couldn’t stop crying

You were always there

So believe me when I say

That I never meant to hurt you

I’ve been meaning to tell you this

And so much more

But every time I get to see you

It feels like it’s not the same anymore

And that hurts too much