Cigarette Thoughts

Cigarette Thoughts

A Poem by AlexFawn3

I watch the smoke curl up from the end of my cigarette
Drift off into the summer breeze
How I wish I could float away like that sometimes 
But here I sit in my head 
I feel my heart beat there instead 
Maybe later I'll get dressed 
Go out to my boyfriend
Let him hold me 
Maybe I'll cry 
There's a beauty I've found in being a woman 
There's not one thing that I have to be 
Sometimes I transcend across a million different dimensions 
Watch my tears fall as I laugh at my sorrow 
Knowing I'll feel differently tomorrow 
Not good or bad 
Or necessarily anything 
Just being, just existing 
Let that be enough for now 
In another life I think I would have existed in a small town 
Worked in the corner shop
Knowing the names of all the people that would come in 
Sometimes life doesn't have to mean anything 
I struggle with that 
There's a lot that I struggle for 
I've always felt like the type of girl who wanted more 
I know it would be easier if I didn't think so much 
Sit back, let my thoughts turn to dust 
I think of my cigarette smoke 
Long put out 
And wonder,
Is this really all that life's about?

© 2023 AlexFawn3


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"Life doesnt have to mean anything", "Let that be enough for now". This is a true reflection of Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. I appreciate how you still challenge yourself at the end, unable or unwilling to settle with banality. Very good. thank you

Posted 6 Months Ago


the calmness portrayed as you contemplate. truly stunning.
love the visual - i can smell the smoke as my own heart beats.

Posted 11 Months Ago


I often find myself thinking the same thing. This was such a nice read.

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sorrowful contemplation, wandering mind seeking something more as everything seems so desolate. Hopefully the boyfriend finds you solace.

Great read.

With love

Matthew

Posted 11 Months Ago



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Added on December 1, 2023
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Tags: sad, hope, poetry, personal

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AlexFawn3
AlexFawn3

Dublin, Ireland



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