Should've known better

You brought out the worst in me... and now I gotta pick up the pieces left of my heart.

I'm just trying to survive when I thought I found something better

It started out warm but now my world's on fire

Now I've been damaged when I should've known better

I should've known your love would expire

You brought out the worst in me

Got me thinking I'm broken and loveless

Locked myself out of my life for a 'what could be'

Now your teeth hold my tongue and I'm feeling loveless

Smoldering cigarettes lick my streaming tears

My eyes are closed but I can't stop hearing the words gone unsaid

I shouldn't have tried this again when I've had my shares

I should've known you'd make me feel dead

Stupid seems to be in the air

Breathing love in my lungs when I'm already drowning

This life called reality isn't fair

I'm just trying to survive when I'm already drowning

I placed my heart with you when I should've known better

You've taken my trust and played with my heart

It should be better now that you've walked out for someone better 

But I've lost myself because you've taken my life apart

I guess I shouldn't miss you

But then I shouldn't have left my heart with you too

Reviews

[Robert Trakofler]

Oh Lavi, i'm going thru this right now and I don't think i could write of it any better... in fact i wont even try.
Those infernal pieces.. just when you think you have them all back... some worthless git rips them back apart! Eventually we will come to the realization that they weren't worth it and that we are... but that comes at a cost of sorrowful tears. But in the end it was worth it for we are free of the one of whom was ultimately hurting us and would be continuing to do so, had we not been lucky enough to be free of them. This Bunny.... (Robert) with a consonant heart gives you a big hug and picked up one of your pieces on the way over to do so! stay strong:)

[Chris Shaw]

Sometimes, it happens like that. Some people do have that ability to bring out the worse side of our character instead of the best. It's painful, but it's also a learning experience. You conveyed your emotions well in this poem. I liked what I read.

Chris

[Lavi]

Thank you so much! Looking back and rereading this, I'm in awe of the emotion of this write, almost in a state of disbelief that I wrote it with my own hands, if not for the experience that shaped it :) :)

[Chris Shaw]

Smiling with you :)

[Steph_F90]

I really like this. The words weigh heavy on reading, yet equally you do not want it to end as you are taken on the despairing journey with the author. Beautifully portrayed.

[Lavi]

Thank you so much! Your compassion is appreciated :)

[Mrudula Rani]

This is bound to happen when we give our heart to people who don't know the value of life or love. Consider this experience as a lesson learned and moving on would be wise, but that It is easier said than done.

[Lavi]

Mmm, yes it is. And it does mean to move on, yes, but it also cautions letting this not happen again. Thanks so much for your feedback! :D

[Crowley]

This feels like lyrics. A quick tumble down hill full of emotion and misplaced desire. The cadence that I read it in may be the reason for the lyric comment, but it kind of builds that on its own. Nice work!!

[Lavi]

Mmhm, I was thinking so too. Sometimes I feel like I could be a songwriter if I really wanted to be... but a lot of lyrics are often basically poetry depending on the way they're written. Love hearing your thoughts - thanks for leaving a review!! :)

[Dara]

I am not sure I have adequate words to describe how this write makes me feel. I can sense the depth of your emotion and definitely relate on many levels. I will want to save it to read over and over to let it absorb. Truly remarkable!

[Lavi]

Aw thank you so much! It's intense, believe me I understand what you mean when you say you want to read it over and over again to fully absorb its context. And I love it all the more because of that. I really appreciate you leaving feedback :) :)

[Andrea]

The type of connection you describe, as well as the feelings of love and loss surrounding it speak to me so much. You evoked such a conflicting set of emotions very very well, I love this!

[Lavi]

Thank you! That means so much to me! I kinda poured my heart and soul into the write and I'm glad it connected. That's not a bad thing right? Haha, hopefully not, but this is poetry. Thanks so much for stopping by and leaving me feedback - it's very appreciated and pretty much just made my day.

[Andrea]

Not a bad thing at all! I haven't met many other people who can understand this type of connection when I describe it because it is so intense--so you're right, what better way to evoke something so profound than with poetry?

Of course! I look forward to reading more of your work :)

[Lavi]

I would love for you to do so!!! Although, I can't say I have much that can compare to this write, but I'd be crazy to talk someone out of wanting to review/read my other work ;)

[LovePoetry0004]

just dang. That definitley made me shiver.

[Lavi]

Thank you. This is definitely one of my deeper writings. I've been trying to become in-tune with what I'm feeling and thinking and by your reaction I believe I have succeeded. I appreciate you stopping by and sharing your thoughts with me.