Tears of Repentance and Longing

A heartfelt prayer that explores themes of faith, repentance, and the human longing for connection. It captures the emotional struggle of loneliness, the search for love and meaning, and the ultimate

As I let out tears of sorrow and grief, my heart yearns to live for you, my Lord.

I feel sad about all the things I’ve done to displease you Lord, please accept my sincere apology.

 

I am sorry for all that you went through for me.

Thank you so much, Lord, I can’t even comprehend how much you care for me. 

You feel for me like a father for his son. I weep tears of joy just thinking about your love for me Lord.

 

As I walk through the street, I see other people, but I still feel alone. 

Yes, you are always with me God, and for that, I am thankful. 

But I still feel lonely. 

I take drugs and get high to numb my pain, but it doesn’t take it away. 

Nothing gives me joy but you Lord. All I ask, Jesus, is for you to supply my heart with joy and take my sadness away.

I ask that you give me someone who understands me. 

Someone I can kiss and love, and also help and be there for.

I want a soulmate, Lord, someone who knows my faults, flaws, and shortcomings, yet still loves me for who I am. 

I can always turn to you, Lord, but I long for a sinful being like me to relate to.

I spend time with those I call my friends, but they don’t give me peace.

I accept their attention, confusing it to be their love and feel numbness to my pain and sorrow.

As I walk back home and the pain slowly returns to fill my worn-out heart, I cry tears of agony and sadness. Through all my sorrow, I realize that you alone, God, can supply me with the everlasting peace I desire. 

It is not drugs I crave, but you, Jesus. It is not attention I ache for, but your enormous love for me. 

As I covet normality, God calls me to do more than fit in.

As I cry out to you for answers, Lord, you whisper in my ear to be more patient.

You instruct me to put my trust in you, beloved Jesus, no matter how tough, depressing, or dreadful my life may be.

O Lord, be with me throughout my life, helping me not only to put my trust in you but also guiding and inspiring me to help others put their faith in you, dear Lord.

I’m so sorry, for everything Lord. Thank you, Jesus, for taking on the entirety of God’s wrath in my place. I love you so much for that, Lord, Amen.

Reviews

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

I love this poem! It beautifully captures the raw emotional struggles of faith, repentance, and longing. The heartfelt plea for guidance, companionship, and peace resonates deeply, especially lines like “It is not drugs I crave, but you, Jesus.” The vulnerability and spiritual yearning give the poem an authenticity that is both touching and inspiring. The journey from sorrow to surrender is powerfully conveyed. Lovely work!

[Alek Wolf]

Thank you!

[Thomas W Case]

Beautiful work, my friend. Powerful.

[Alek Wolf]

Thanks for your comment!