What If?

Questioning how we view things in life.

To talk about my love for Christ is not only an honor, but it is extremely overwhelming to my heart. To know that because of the sacrifice Jesus made for us long ago that I can be whom ever He called me to be. For the last several days I have experienced a love of God that I don’t think has ever hit me in this magnitude before. I remember not long ago, just a few weeks ago as a matter of fact, I would cry out asking. God where are you? I felt as if He were no longer with me. As if I was all alone in my thoughts. I was feeling as if God was tired of my lack of faith and my lack of desire to serve Him. Having the thoughts run through my mind that God’s grace was no longer sufficient for me. Allowing the enemy too fill my head with lies. I know God has a great calling on my life, but I always questioned why? All I could think of is the many mistakes I have made in my past and how some of my mistakes hurt many people. What if I never made those mistakes? What if I never said those things?

 

Some people have different issues in their lives, things they carry in their hearts. Mine has always been an insecurity of myself. The not knowing who I could become in Him the one who gave His life for me. Through most of my life I have struggled with self image because of my weight. I knew on the inside I had become a woman of God that people could come too. A person who has a heart the size of heaven for little children, but on the outside was another situation going on. I struggle daily with a weight issue that holds me back from doing the work God has called me to do. As much as I cry out too God to help me, I also hold this question in the back of my mind, what if? What if God had allowed me to lose the weight I needed to lose and it went to my head? What if being thin again made me the person I was in the past.

 

So I would convince myself that I didn’t need to lose weight because I knew God loved me deeply for who I was in Him and not for what I looked like on the outside. I also knew that my husband was very much in love with me because he saw my heart and who I really was, so what do I really need to lose weight for? So for many years I would struggle back and forth, do I or don’t I want to free myself of this problem? The more I began to spend time with God, the more I knew the answer was yes. My heart began to feel heavy, not in a bad way, but it began to feel as if it were filling up. Well, it was, my heart was filling up with an abundance of love. The love for my Father began to overwhelm me spending hours in His word for days at a time. Worship became a non stop part of my life. I was in love with Jesus like never before.

 

That’s when I realized that I loved God enough to begin to take care of His temple. I came to the realization that my body was also His temple. For the first time I knew that I am not now who I was then. I am a child of the Most High God. I no longer have to wonder.. What if anymore. I now know that I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. We alone will never be worthy, but He alone is worthy. John 10:10, "...I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." There are no losers in Christ. There is no room for embarrassment in the kingdom of God. He has not called us to be ashamed of whom He alone has created us to be. I have spent my whole life wondering, What If? With God there is no, what if? Serving God is not a question of, What If?  It’s an opportunity to be loved by the one true God. Serving Him and saying Jesus come into my heart and save me, not only from the enemy, not only from my past, but God saved me from myself. . Romans 10:13, "For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." We often need saved from ourselves. Unfortunately we cannot go on day by day blaming Satan for everything that goes on in our lives. We as people allow ourselves to do and think and feel and say things that should never be done.

God gives us freedom of choice, and just some times we make bad choices. Satan does not get all the credit for that nor all the blame, at times we need to stand up and take our own blame, except our own responsibilities. The great thing about God is His grace. In 2^nd Corinthians 12: God says: “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” I myself am grateful for His grace in my life. Had it not been for the grace of God, depression would have taken my life along time ago. I no longer have to sit here and ask, What If? I can now stand on solid ground and say: It Is. It is I whom He has called to serve Him. It is I whom He has given His son for. It is I who will spend the rest of my life in love and grateful to the one that has chosen me. No matter how little you feel or how broken you are. Know that God is the healer of our hearts. For every tear you cry, God wants to wipe away. Let us stop spending the rest of our lives asking: What If? Just open your heart and run to him. His arms are open wide waiting for you.  John 3:16, "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. How many times in our lives have we desired for someone to love us for who we are? How many of us have people who already love us? Still we have that empty feeling as if something is missing. It’s like going to the refrigerator time and time again looking for something to eat, but the same thing that was there the first time is still there, yet we still keep searching. You no longer need to search if you have the love of God. Gods love promises to fulfill all the emptiness that lies inside of us.

God Himself says in 1^st John 4:16 and so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.  Too experience love as amazing as this is only guaranteed by God. No human can love you as God loves you. By accepting His love and choosing to live for Him you will always know that you are loved and that you will spend eternity with Christ. Choose Him now and never again ask: What If?