The Lifter of My Head

I am not Christ but I was called by God to be like Christ. I am not the Light but I was called by

God to shine His Light. John 1:6-9 God sent a man, John the Baptist, to tell about the light so that everyone might believe because of his testimony. John himself was not the light; he was simply a witness to tell about the light. The one who is the true light, who gives light to everyone, was coming into the world. I am not the Savior but was called by God to inform you that the Savior is real. He died a horrible death to bare or sins and later He rose again. Some people think I'm loud and boisterous, some people think I have way too much to say and I usually do. I've even been nick named Gabby :) Either way they think is okay. I'm not one who believes that I have that many gifts, but I do believe the gift to gab is one of them. I may not be hugely gifted in an abundant of areas, I may not be the kind of person who can spout scripture off the top of my tongue, but I am that person who will share what I know.  I don't have a large amount of brain power but I have a tremendous amount of knowledge. My knowledge comes from life itself. My knowledge comes from experiencing the most dreadful and terrifying of times. Feeling as if I wanted to die many times over and yet each day I woke up. There was a time not too many years ago, that I believed that we live in a world full of different people with different problems and we all had to learn how to deal with it. At 16 years, old I reluctantly accepted Christ as my savior. I instantly felt the Holy Spirit moving through me, but because I was unaware of what it was I got angry and backed away.

 I understand now that there are some people who have a genuine fear of being publicly and radically excited for Jesus because I used to be that person. I am in my forties and it wasn’t until a few years ago, that I learned that Salvation wasn't all God had to offer. I found out that I could have an intimate relationship with my Father. Hmmm, that was something I've never had, not in a pure form anyway. I began to pray, but not these sophisticated prayers.  My prayers consisted of me just talking with Jesus. Asking Him who He was too me. Asking Him who am I and why am I here. I began to have very intimate conversations with Him. I began reading His word and finding out who He is too me.  Through being intimate and personal with God I have been able to identify His presence. I have heard His voice, I have started to see the things He is showing me. I truly understand to live for Christ is to die (in the flesh) to love the unlovable, to forgive the unforgivable and to reach out to the unreachable. So yes, at time I am loud, opinionated, excited, ready and eager to learn. When I have a Father, who takes one hand and picks me up out of the ashes then and only then did I understand the love of a Father. So even being unqualified in the worlds eyes I will always give my very best. I will always give Jesus my yes. Even when I'm scared or feeling inadequate. I know if I'm operating under His will and not my own then I will succeed in all I do.

I am not always bold, there are times I am fearful. Usually a fear of failing. Emotionally a fear of feeling unworthy enough to carry myself to look or sound like a Woman of God always. I used to think that unless I carried a title or a certain level of education then I wasn't capable of making a difference. Well I can tell you that it is important to study His word and gain His knowledge but what is also great is that most and I mean almost all ministry comes from life experiences. That's how God uses our hearts, because we've seen things and because we've been there we understand how to love as He would love. So, when I feel like I'm not good enough or I'm never going to make it. I always remind myself of the 1st prophetic scripture I've ever received which stated......... Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

 

I believe in His promises. I went from a life of despair and depression to being like a little girl excited to be with her Daddy and to share Him with the world. Years ago, someone told me that due to my childhood statistically I should have been a drug user, prostitute and probably dead. Well, let me tell you that I was on my way to all three of them. Can I say But God!! He had a plan for me and He kept me. He raised me out of the ashes into a Woman of God who just wants everyone to know that if He can do it for me and He did, then He will do it for you, but you must want it. I have lived through poverty, many forms of abuse and much rejection. I only share that with you to tell you that Jesus is real and He can deliver you from everything you have ever had put on you. You can go from tears of sadness to tears of joy, from being rejected to and overwhelming presence of His acceptance. I know because I was once there in a place of rejection and now I am not. I live excited because God fulfilled His promise and gave me new life, A life of Joy and Passion. A life free from eternal damnation and He wants you to have those same opportunities, and so I will continue to post things and speak things even if people find them to over the top or radical, because I serve a radical God who has set me free from All bondage. Never will I speak to offend. My passion is to uncover His truth to all those who are lost and willing to listen. My heart’s desire is to see everyone free from whatever is holding them back from receiving Gods love. I share because I want everyone to know Jesus like I know Jesus. He is the lifter of my head and He wants to be yours as well. He will lift your head and open your eyes to see His Glory

 

Psalms 3:3 But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high.

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

You have a very interesting story. I'm not a believer but i find it quite amazing how so many people can go from unbelief to a state of unquestioning faith. I can see that your early experiences has been a contributing factor.
By the way i noticed that in your 'About' section i presume that word excepting should be accepting. Excepting would give it the opposite meaning!
Regards,
Alan

["Aleeza"]

Nice to meet you Alan and thanks for the review :) God has always been been a driving force in my life, but in human nature we can find it very easy to not believe at times. At a young age it was hard for me to believe after the childhood I lived, but God proved Himself in so many ways that I can't help but to love Him. Also, thank you for pointing my about section out to me, I never noticed it before :)