What is done is done

That is an old poem Written by Aldo Kraas

What is done is done

My pictures fade

To black and white*

They have lost their colors

There is not much I can do

Because what is done is done

A motorcycle or a car would be no good for me

Because I don't know how to drive a motorcycle or a car

I have no license

It would be parked in my driveway rusting away

I would have to sell it

And get some cash

What is done is done

In spite of it all

I am feeling better

How many roads I must walk to get to you?

Because what is done is done

My love for you is unconditional

It is a lucky day that I can have sometime for myself

Without thinking about old stuff

That is now worthless to me

Because what is done is done

My sweet one is God

I am sure he knows that

I mention it to him a thousand times

Because what is done is done

My world is now on fire

There is plenty of shame that I feel

I am trying to build a better life for me

My roots are superficial here on earth where I stand

Because what is done is done

I still can change it

You are now looking in the eyes of a criminal

- That is me

Where does my faith come in?

Nobody else knows my feelings better than me

And I know what is done is done

I will not let the bad dreams wake me up in the middle of the night

Because they were strange dreams

I had them before

I can't change the fact that I had done those things before

Because what is done is done

I am surfacing in this land

What is done is done

The moon holds its water

So that the temperature in the winter time can be mild

The moon plays an important role in my life

When there is a full moon I know I sometimes act strange

Because what is done is done

Shelter me

Where I can forget about the things that happened to me a while ago

Because what is done is done

I will wear my love like heaven

Everyday

The clocks move fast

The time moves ahead fast

I need some solace from God and you

I just hope someday to embark on a new mission

Because now I am fumbling towards ecstasy**

I looked everywhere I could for you

But that love died

After it was burning my skin

The scars are left

But I have high hopes for me

Because what is done is done

Is there somebody who will love me all the way?

Because what is done is done

I have been hurting too many people over and over again

With my violence

I hope to learn from this lesson and never do it again

Because what is done is done

Now I feel that I can't be a role model to anyone

I feel powerless

I have no power to control my temptations at the moment

I hope somebody will give it to me

And that somebody should be God

Because what is done is done

Nothing is broken other than my life

You never saw me crying like this before

It is because I am living a broken life

I am living with lies that people told me

They believed they knew me

That is not true

Who am I?

Who is this man with the brilliant and sharp mind?

They need to learn

I need to start over

And make something out of my life

Time is moving on

And if I don't take the chance I have I might lose it all

I am so far

I am out of reach

I am now trying to repair my broken life

Because what is done is done

If you could just say a prayer for me

I would appreciate it very much

But remember that I am far away

Out of reach

I hope someday I will be able to love you still

Because what is done is done

Do I know the color of my life?

Yes I should have known better

I acted on impulse

What is done is done

How does it feel to me knowing that I have a criminal record?

Bad, bad, bad

But what is done is done

I wish I could let go of my anger

I hope I will be able to do it

I need to work on it

Imagine me living in peace with myself and the ones I had hurt

Sometimes things are so complicated

Some things I have no control over

But

The things I do have control over is my behavior: the way I think, the Way I feel, And the way I Communicate with people

The things that I can't control is the war, terrorism, and the pollution that Is In the air

Will I see a happy ending to my life?

Who will pick up the pieces now that I have fallen to pieces?

What is done is done

Love comes to everyone

But not to me this time

I can forgive others

Someday I will forgive myself

When my life will be no longer broken

Not even one chance I will get

Now the judges hold my fate

And I have to play their game

I have no way out of it

Inside of me there is a desire to scream

Now I am standing at the crossroads

Trying to read the signs

To tell me which way I should go

To find all the answers that I need to fix my broken life

I don't care if it is right or wrong

For me to be at the crossroads

But one thing that I know

Is that there are lot's of questions popping up in my mind

I'll be there and back once my life is not broken anymore

It is time for me to just sit back

And wait for the world to come and crash down on my head

And I know that what is done is done

I feel so restless right now

I am sleeping at the park

This is because I have so much going through my mind

I am sleeping the night away

The dark night is my only companion

Not a sound I hear

Not even the traffic

Or people passing by

This is my problem

Nobody else’s

Because what is done is done

If I ever lose my mind again

I will have to stop and think before I act on impulse

Everything in my life must change soon

Because my life is broken

I feel once again the body heat rising

It keeps me warm in this night

Just once God will you save me this time?

God I'm yours

Because what is done is done

God I don't want to let you down

Say you are going to be mine God

I will give patience a chance

That is all that is left for me to do

Is there a chance for me to go to heaven?

God I was this time a prisoner inside the jail cell

It is even horrible to think about it

But what is done is done

Before I was thinking about God

I had woken up

And I saw something

I thought it was a shadow

But I found out sooner or later that it was God

That came for me

I kiss the wind

I am so unfortunate to be caught in a web of spiders

I am struggling in this uncaring snare

I yearn for a loving heart to call my own

I am speaking into the wind

My cries go to the right ear

Is there an escape?

Perhaps yes if only in the recesses of my mind

I will wait and I will listen

I will hear the one searching for me that is God

I will reach out with my soul and touch another

The one that I will is God

I will embrace God because he is close to me now

My restless empty heart stands still

I will listen to the sounds of the wind

As the wind gently touches my skin

I also need one to trust

To share

And not wanting to be alone

I will speak

Because God wants to hear my pleas

I am opening my arms to welcome the one that is calling for me

- That is God

Like a kiss in the wind

My feelings are there

Carried by and through the wind

God I am also alone like them

I can trust you with your love

I am reaching out

I am hearing you speak to me

Softly and yet so loud

I hear your voice saying

Just kiss the wind

For I am here:

“A careless word may kindle strife

A cruel word may wreck a life

A bitter word may hate instill

A brutal word may smite and kill

A gracious word may light a day

A timely word may lessen stress

A loving word may heal and bless”***

Because what is done is done