I will slow down my mind

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I will slow down my mind

I will slow down my thoughts

Because my thoughts are moving fast

I don't have bad thoughts

On my mind

I will never hurt myself or anybody else anymore

Because I am getting tired of it

I will let people live their life

And I will live mine

People I know that you got to live your life also

People I got my own problems to solve

Not alone but with the help of my friends

People I need to think positively

People I never think negative thoughts

People I hope you understand that I am a human being like you

I can't believe it is only November

The sun was shining today

It is a perfect day to go for a walk

People I know that God will forgive me for the bad things I done

Now it is the time for you to forgive me also

God I am always forgiving myself for the bad things I do

God I have a book to write my thoughts down

And I do it every day

By filling every page of this book

God I know that actions speaks louder than words

God I know the consequences of my bad behavior

God I have my own battles to fight

People I must fight my battles alone

I feel that I will win those battles

People when I speak to you I promise that I will tell only the truth

I will not lie to you people

People your friendship is very important to me

People I don't want to lose you

Because I would be lonely

And I don't want to be alone

People I appreciate everything you do for me

People you were there when I was sick

People I am so happy that I got your support in my life

People please don't abandoned me now

Because I need you in my life

People when you are sick also I will be there for you

People I will try to control my anger

Before it gets out of control

God deep down I am a good person

People I love for who you are

And I accept the way you are

People my depression got much better

People I don't feel depress the way I used to feel

People I am so happy to be alive every day

And it is God that keeps me alive every day

People I want to worship God every day

People I want to pray for peace now

Because we need peace now

People I don't want to live forever

Because I know that God is in charge of my life

It is God that rules my life and not me

People I am not getting any younger

I am older now

People my youth days are over

People I never drunked in my life

People I will stay sober

People my childhood days are over

And when I was young I had asthma

People I am not the one who tells one thing and do the other

People I never put things off in my life

People can you pick me up when I fall

People if you see me sad can you cheer me up

People teach me to love people

Because I need to know how to love people

People I need to take care of my health

People I can't live without health

People it is time to say good bye to you

Because I am going to bed

People all the trees are bare now for the winter

And winter is on its way

People the birds had migrated now for the winter

And it makes me so sad

Because I won't hear them singing again

People I already traveled to Europe

And I saw many beautiful places

People I live alone in a place I love

People I don't have much money to spare for the poor

Because the money I have I need for myself

To buy food and pay my rent

God I closed my eyes and I meditate every morning when I wake up

People I want to share my poetry with you all

People I don't drink coffee anymore but I drink tea

People I don't know if I will be here

People I am already planning for tomorrow

People I already suffered so much in my life

With my depression and my diabeties

People I need to take medication for my depression or diabeties

If I want to be well

People summer is now resting

And we will see it next year again

Also the birds will return and they will sing their symphony

There will be lots of sunny days during the summer months

People I must tell you that I love when the birds sing their song

People I always show remorse when I do wrong things

People don't call me crazy because I am not

And it hurts me very much

People please pray for me

And ask God to heal me

People please understand that I don't want to die now

Because I am so young

God please guide me where I am walking

People if I die some day I hope that you all will be there

People I know that you worry a lot about me

And I worry about my life

People we are never alone because God is always there for me

Today the sun went down already and I saw the beautiful sunset

That took my breath away

People I never accused anybody of anything

I never had called people a thief

People I want to get better each day with my health

People I take good care of my hygiene

Because I don't want to smell badly

I also wear clean clothes on my body each day

People I have my own style of clothes

You may not like my style of clothes

People I will talk slowly when I talk to you

So that you can hear what I am saying

People I want to be heard

People I already made so many sacrifices in my life

It was very hard to do

People I am now sleeping all through the night

And I don't wake up in the middle of the night

The next day when I wake up

I feel rested

People when I sleep I also snore very loud

People I will speak up for myself

Because I need to speak up

When I get angry I must tell people that I am angry

Will people understand that I am angry?

God so many people broke my heart so many times

God I want to ask you to repair my broken heart

People I have so many feelings

And I feel that I have to let my feelings out

When I speak

God I don't judge any body

So I don't want to be judge

God I am always worried about what people thinks about me

God I should stop worrying about what people think about me

God I will continue living my life the best way I can

People we need to love each other and not hate each other

People we need to have respect for each other

People sometimes it is hard to pass the time

There are days that the time past so fast when I am having fun

Friends I am missing you because I haven't seen you for so long

God I need to be feed now because I am starving

So don't forget to feed me

God I am lost for words

Right now

God all I need is to be with you

God wash my eyes so that I can see clearly

People God will give us peace every day

God I can't get enough of your love

So please God give me more love

So that I can give to those that I love

People I know that you all love me

And I want to thank you all for loving me

God I want to climb the mountain during the winter

And I want to see the blue sky with no clouds

The evergreen are covered with snow

And God I want to tell you that it looks beautiful

A new morning has broken

And I am so excited about it

Just being alive

Breathing that air that is filling up my lungs

My heart is pumping that blood all over my body

People please show your love to me

God I want to celebrate my life here on earth

God I am not ashamed of my mental illness

God if I had to do the same for you I would my God

I would give my love and a kiss to you

God tell me why life is so complicated

Because it is so complicated

People no matter where you are I will be waiting for you

I know you must follow this path that will take you some place

God I been dreaming away tonight

The only thing I want to do is dream tonight with you God

Because I am so in love with you my God

People I have some self esteem

And myself esteem is very high

People I have recovered from my depression

And I am feeling fine with lots of energy

Now I just have to live my life

To the fullest

God I will not play game with people's feelings

Because that is a dangerous thing to do

God I let you down so many times

And I want to say sorry for doing it

God please understand that I am not selfish

I don't think only about myself

God if I had to choose between peace or war I would chose peace

God the war have killed so many innocent children

We lost so many children already

God I know that you can perform miracles

God I seem all the miracles that you do for the people

God I know that you can't put a price on life

People when you love somebody you should love them all the way

People no one can live without love

People never tell somebody that you hate them

Because that is a bad thing to do

People you need to learn to relax

Because when you are relaxed you will feel better

God love gives me the right to be free

I am living on the edge

And I am saving all my love for you God