It is hard for me to be back to square one

That is an old poem Written by Aldo Kraas

I know that I am carrying this havy burden for a long time

It is hard for me to be back to square one

Because every time something happens to my life

I have to be back to square one

Starting over my life is hard

Planning my life is hard

And get back to my life the way it was

I don't know why I am so hard on myself?

I don't know why I keep punishing myself?

I think that is because I am so stubborn

That I keep doing it over and over again

Don't I get hurt with that?

Yes I do get hurt with that

I can't understand why I hurt myself so much

It is hard for me to go back to square one

So many bad things happened this month

That I am angry with myself

Why did I let this Happened?

That is because I didn't see it coming my way

Why didn't I see it coming my way?

I guess I couldn't see the warnings coming

I can say to myself that this time there was no warnings

How will my life be now?

It will get better?

It can't get any worst than it is

It only has to get better again

I am the one that have to work hard to make it better

I want to live my life to the fullest

And do the best I can

I am so ashamed of the things I've done

It thorns my heart to pieces

And it destroys my life completely

Jail is not a place for me

I don't want to see that place any more

I am working hard to stay out of there

I suffered so much this month

I hope that I don't have to suffer any more

I want a littte bit of peace

I want some hugs

I want someone that I can talk with

Back to square one

Back to square one

Back to square one

Back to square one