???CONFUSED???

I am so confused

I love you so much

but some time i think you dont feel the same way

the only reason i hold on so tight is my fear of losing you

and for those times i actualy know you love me 2

but sometimes i think you love everybody else more than me

even people your not dateing

like when you put your arm around other girls at school (the ones your not dateing i dont mind julie as much) but i do mind raven

and i dont think i would mind as much if you would just put your arm around me sometimes

but you dont

and i just dont understand why i dont hold a place in your heart higher than some of them

when i tell you it hurts

you just seem to make it hurt worse

like you dont care any more

and that scares me more than you could understand

baby i love you more than anybody

by now i think you know that

but sometimes i think you dont love me at all

that is the scarest thought of all

i hate to start to think about stuff like this

because my thoughts just get worse and worse

till eventualy i think they are true

but i hold on to that little ray of hope that there not

but sometimes i dont know

and i need to know if i will ever be loved with the love you show them every time you see them?

because if not i need to leave and find that some one that will put me up there

but the thing is baby i could never leave you even if this is true

because before you i was the leader,

but with you i am the follower of the biger leader

i dont think i could be that leader you are if i ever left

because you teach me more and more each day

and i cant live with out that

i love you baby

i wish you could love me the same way

so for now all i can do is keep hope and faith in you

that one day i will be the center of your world

like you are in mine

 

I LOVE YOU PICKLES

 

LOVE YOUR BABY GIRL

 

"I love you more with every breath we take"-Alayna

Author's Note

baby maybe one day you'll understand lets just hope that it will be sooner then later i love you baby!