Still Lost

this is a poem about somebody i lost and how it changed me

 

 

Still Lost

 

Its been more then a year now...

But the pain still remains, it lingers

And it feels like it happened just yesterday...

 

And it feels like it couldn't have been so long...

already

 

Because I wonder how I have carried on...

without you

 

The laughter died on that Tuesday...

when you left me

Here unable to fathom that here...

you no longer were

 

I had to pull myself together, my

heart in pieces but a sad calm in my

head as I...

 

Picked up the phone, took a deep breath

and relayed the tragic news to the woman

Who gave birth to me

 

And told her that her greatest nightmare had...

come true

 

That we had both lost you

 

And mom she came and I...

I couldn't cry

I had to be strong

A cool, comforting rock

 

As I hugged my mother who was minus a daughter

 

And as we drove up to the small white building...

where the truth would be known

 

I watched mom break down at the picture of you...

so broken

That the lady showed her

 

And there could be no denial as I stared at your...

swollen, empty face, eyes closed in death's slumber

 

Days passed like glass shards sticking into my heart

 

And then we finally drove to a small place that made...

something tremble within me

 

And mom broke down when she saw you, when she saw you...

in a box

 

She touched you...

 

I walked over slowly to see a fallen angel

thinking I could...

keep composure

 

But...

 

I saw your stiff and empty body, hollow

A shell of what you were

 

I touched your skin...

 

So unyielding, no warmth...

 

You were gone

 

And my innocence, a piece of me...

it died that day

 

And still is lost

Author's Note

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Reviews

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Beautifully, poignantly written.

Death and loss make for so much good writing, but it takes lots of practice to craft those words in such a way that the reader feels the loss too. You've done that here. Well done.

The best to you and your writing!

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