No one KnowsA Poem by Emma-JoanMarch 14th 2014 Ever wonder what it would be like To have more than just your voice in your head? That dont only talk but they also fight They tell you to do things some good some bad and your forced to do their every command People say Its not real. Its just in your head I know its in my head. Thats what makes it worse I know im not normal These twisted voices prove that My mind is a messed up place When i was young i learned to hide the voices Not even my parents know Now I’m fifteen and they still don't know but keeping something like this hidden for so long Can have dire consequences The voices never left If anything more came Theres nothing i can do They still command me but I've learned I do not have to do the things they say Even though sometimes the fear takes over Some days are good and the voices stay silent other days are not and the voices turn violent some days i can bear it others i cannot Yet still no one knows no one knows my smile is fake And I'm fighting on the inside People ask why I’m so anti social Well its hard to talk with voices yelling in your head And it far more easy to hide my mind the further i am away April 30th 2015 I am now 16 and lifes no better the voices are still there nothings getting better im still all alone lost in this confusion i cant bear to tell anyone i am slipping into my own world i sit there staring at a wall not moving not speaking just thinking this is not day dreaming this is a step up i sit there for hours playing in my own world lately I've been confused between my world and reality i must constantly watch what i do and say What I'm saying where is it from My world or this reality If i slip up one little mistake everyone will know The only place i am free is my own world I can do what i like No one hates me or is cruel My world contians many different areas I call them countries most come from books or shows i often escape there sometimes not by choice and unless I'm in my world i cannot be still All this has gotten me labeled ADHD I know that i am not but it gives me an excuse I know i shouldn't use it but it makes my life so much easier its easier to escape to your world when you have a reason © 2015 Emma-JoanAuthor's Note
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