Faceless

Colliding with hell as I fell
Share some words with me I bet you couldn't tell
The struggle to wake takes all I got
The boil of my blood could make any iced soul hot
Imagine a life where things were normal
I can't because death seems near so better dress formal
You laugh and joke while I'm in turmoil
We'll see who's laughing when I'm beneath the soil
How is a man supposed to live in these conditions
Paying all his dues but he's cursed by superstitions
The pain is deep
The tears can't help but seep
All I seem to do is weep
I pray to lord I'll be able to sleep
How could love treat it's best like this
I seem to always be looking through mist
I did everything right but it all went so wrong
They all make it seem easy to be strong
Live a day like this and you'll understand
You'll begging for a life that was bland
Stick your head underneath the sand
It's hard to go on when you feel you've been damned
The options always seem so slim
I always have to take life's beating and the light looks so dim
I reach and grab for any hope I have left
As of now the hope seems to have left
I'm lost and blindfolded so I guess it's time for isolation
Seclusion from the allusion of my desired destination
How can someone with so much love have to live so lonely
Maybe I'm a phony
No one gives a chance to know me
Always assuming the worst
But why complain now this isn't the first
If I don't write I'm sure I'd burst
Oh and did I mention I was cursed
Let's see what happens when I fall off the face of the earth
Will I perish or will it cause a rebirth
Only time will tell and it doesn't feel like I have much remaining
There's no growth, just desperation for maintaining
I need a turn around but I'm tired of fighting
These days are as believable as UFO sighting
I must be dreaming, how could things be so bad
They all tell me how could I be upset over something I never had
I had more than anyone will ever know
And now I have to hide it all and never let it show
My life has become a charade
My life is unknown like a masker aide