Colourful

_what is there to live for? =you.some of ice.

Saturday.12:00 am...
"The beginning "
The way you wake up , t's always differs from one person to another.

I mean,lots of us wake up on his phone alarm and lots wake on his window ray of sunshine.

Many students wake on their mothers or fathers voice telling them to prepare for school or to have breakfast.

the status here is alittle

,just alittle

different .

i wake up on my mother voice ,too
but not telling me to have breakfast or these weird things

.i wake up on my mother voice telling me that i'm the worst thing that had happend in her life and adds that she regrets giving birth of me and also that i'm her worest mistake and that im
a nightmere
but a real one
and dont ask how

!.she is often drunk and thats why i'm often kicked out of the house .So

HElLo ferom the garden !

its 12 am and im siting on the stairs already waiting my lovley mum to recover

.i broke a record ,you know .im often kicked out at 8 pm when she comes back

.im wearing my cotton pants-the black one- and the pink sweetshirt

.i thank god my hair is short so i dont have to fix it all the times

.to be abvious ,im blonde with light blue eyes ,white skin,a light yellow hair that it looks alittle white and two black points under my left eye

.its odd i know.im not short .im 25 .i work in a cafe as a waiter
.mum hardly gives me money

.I ...

wait

.anew neighbour

, anew crazy one.

watch out ,man !

i see him in the other side ,he is walking ,giving his back to the road and there is a f*****g lorry passing

"Siiiiiir " i call tring to attract his attention but i get nothing .he is carring a heavy box .

"Duuudde " i screem but no response

.f**k handphones

!he is puting them .s**t ! the lorry is close now .

i immediatley start to run crossing the road to that man then i push him ,we two fall.

the lorry is like almost touching us ! my heart is jumping inside my chest .that was new.

"s**t ! " he whispers .i look at him and he is looking at the ground
.we are on the grass of his house i guess

.he is a tall man with black hair

and his eyes ?

."sir ? " i say .he lifts his head looking at me still surprised

.blue .his eyes are blue

."yeah? " he answers."how old are you ? " i ask .he looks confused but answers "30" .
"and didn't you mother tell you before to look right and left when you are crossing the road ? " i say quietly.im not really angry or frightened or something.but i jusr wonder.
."I wasn't crossing" he yells still recovering from the accident .
"im sorry,thank you " he yells again then breathes out .

whats wrong with that man !

i just stay calm .its okey .

he puts his head between his hands ,crossing his legs .

its not that big matter .we just were almost going to die .

"are you oky? " i ask ."i appreciate what you did really .you can go now " he says quietly .so quiet that i hardly heard him

."its okey" i say standing giving him a hand .he takes it standing too .
"im sorry for endanger you " he says scratching the back of his head .

he is nice .

"i dont care .its okey" i say smiling .he breathes out again .

"who are you by the way? " i ask
."im new here" he says ."oh ,okey thats my house ..or mum's to be exact.if you need something ,call me or ..you won't need to .i'm often siting on the stairs "

i say particlarly talking to myself .

he looks little confused but he nods.i bade him then cross the road to my house .

mum house i mean .

i set on the stairs again waiting mum to let me in.he looks at me for seconds then he go inside his house

..then he returns geting his stuff from the truck

then he goes into.

half an hour passed and he is still haven't finished .

"help? " i shout .he hears me the he nods smiling .

well,its better than doing noting .

"you have strong mucsles ! " he says while we are carring his coush inside.

i smile .i worked in many men's job .we finaly end .

he sets on the coush taking his breaths .i set ,too .

"arent you afarid ? " he suddenly asks ."from what ? " i ask ."well ,from siting with a strange looking man in a stange house.and also that you have been siting out of your house for nearly an hour at 12 am ! "

he talks like he is a criminal or something and i always stay out like this .i cant help it

."well,why would i feel afraid ? you are such a quiet man .plus you are rather handsome and i'm kicked out of my house .i can do nothing about it"
i say

.he looks little surprised but he loughs

"are you kidding me ! " he loughs

.."what! you didnt hear before about a mother kicking out he only daugther at 12 am ? " i say sarcastically

."no ! i mean you just said im handsome and you didnt realize even " he loughs again

wait.what!?!!

"i didnt!"

.why the f**k would i tell him he is handsome !

he loughs for the last time ."well, do you need a boyfriend?" he loughs again.

that idoit.

i cant help but lough too

."not my type " i say

."THAnk you !" he loughs

.i lough ." im going to do nothing now.you should continue doing your stuff.oh ,don't introduce yourself to miss maylie next door as she hates men " .i say walking out of his house

.he looks at me then loughs again.

he loughs alot isnt he?

." then how could she be "miss" ? " he asks and i lough."

i think thats the main reason "

i say , bade him and leave hearing his high lough.i set again on the stairs doing nothing but looking at the cars passing.i close my eyes.i really wanna sleep.it's Quite cold and darkoutside.very dark and quiet that it makes you feel depressed and bring alot of memories.

i look to the sky for the last time then i close my eyes.

"Hey Vicceee ! " .

"Little vice s**t "

i open my eyes to see that stupid guy who lives nearby.

"yes? "

.i answer and he isn't shocked that time .

.he got used to me not fighting with him although he always insults me.i dont care really .

"Did you Mummy kick you out ,vice? "
he says sarcastically ,loughing

.i nod .

"yes,she did." i say smiling at him

.he turns red.
"you're such abitch They really need to clear this nighbourhood from s***s " .
he shouts .

"Where will you live if they did ? " .

i say smiling.he then looks furious then moves forword me.
"If i f**k you here you mother wont mind you know ,VICE "
he yells.

"your mother will."

i say still smiling .he gets more angry.he moves faster stright to me.
"Then i"ll show you "
well, we never did really fight that much .

he comes to close to me then pulls my shirt collar.

i dont scream or panic or anything.i just look at him with very empty eyes

he is making a mistake.

.I dont care if he hits me or kill me.

im dead anyway.

"you are making amistake"

I tell him again but he punch me.so I   slap  him on his ears with my both hand very hard.he holds them in pain.

"I dont like fighting you know ?"

I say calmly approching him then punch him in his stomach .he twists in pain.

"do you know I have been practising
boxing and self_defence for 3 years."

I continue still punching him.

"stop .please "

he says and I immediately stop.he stands then walks away.I look at him then I see my new neighbour watching in surprise.

"I wasnt watching "

he yells nervously and I lough.

"I wanted some tea thats all then I saw this " I lough again.

"Its okey " I say .

"I WON'T KILL You " I say loughing .he lough.

he has a beautiful lough.

"thank you I feel relieved" he loughs then bade me going inot his house.

like every day.the same question come yo my mind.I just got slaped by a guy ,kicked out of the house.having the worest memories but alwas calm and quiet.

"what is there to live for ? "

*to be continued *




"One eye "

Yes,It was a good night sleeping .I got into the house by the ladder of course. Thank God that I have a huge window in my room.though,

I had to hear mum yelling at particularly ....Noting.
The only persons living in this house is us.

And also she broke something.it was loud.

I hope it's not her head.

She doesn't know I'm in the house 'course.I may get killed if she knew.Thats why I'm climbing down the ladder out of the house.I set on the stairs again .I start playing colour switch that I'm obviously suck In it. I look at the new neighbour'a house and I just realize

I don't now his name.

Well,he doesn't know mine,too

And thats some how.. good.

None of us care really.

Ten minutes later, the door is open roughly.
"GO MAKE ME A BREAKFAST "
Well,miss" drunk" has recoverd finally.
I turn to look at her. She is so bale. Her brown eyes are too red and turned to be dark black.And her skin is too bale.

I mentioned that one, didn't I?

WAIT

OMG

MY MUM IS A VAMPIRE !!

Just joking .it would be easier though if the was one.maybe then she wouldn't kick me out couse she would be hunting or something.

I'm going crazy.

"DIDN'T YOU HER ME YOUR S**T! "
she screams cuting me out of my thoughts

she is like cuting me out of every thing.

"I THINK YOU WANT TO COVER YOUR OTHER EYE? "
She says sarcastically.

Well,she got a point.

I won't be able to see if she punchs me in my other eye.I had to cover my eye. The right one as she punched me in it making it swell and also a lot of scratichs around it

.so I think I'm going to choose my other eye.

I go past her into the house and start to climb the staris to my room.

"I SAID MAKE ME A BREAKFAST "
She yells.God! She can't speak without yelling.

I didn't go into the house to make her a brealkfast for God sake.I just got into as if I didn't she will probably pull me of my clothes.

"Make it yourself mum"

I say calmly alittle bored.
She looks at me with an furious expression then se smiles in a foxy way.
"Make it ..

Vice"
She say it like she is singing or something.

That's better than yelling though.

I turn my head and continue climbing up.that name she calls me it isn't my fault.. she...

I mean.

forget it .
I feel her hand pulling me down roughly and then I receve a slap.

Yeah.thats how my mother says "good morning "

She has a problem with talking.

Im not angry really.I've never been.

.pain isn't a thing that would make
me mad.I'm stonget than that.I've been through much worse.

"Mu-"
I try to speak but she slaps me again.I don't do anthing.just look at her with my Normal face expression

. Yeah,the empty one.not mad not sad.not anything.just so empty like my heart.

Well,now i regret going into.i should have run away.now i feelmy nose beelding.alse i feel the scrathes on my cheek and my eyebrow.
Prefect.I will be questioned alot today.

"Make me a breakfast "

She says climbing down.

Enough damages for today.

I go and make her breakfast.I dont want to die though hhh.

Don't feel pity for me.
I dont even feel it to myself
Life isn't always fair.

I finish it then climb up.I can't eat with her.

It almost 7:30 am
I have to go to my work now.
I put on my cloths.
A black leather pants my favorite one.a dark red wool blouse and I put my muffler around my neck covering my mouth under it. Its a cold.I Look at the mirror puing abandage on my eyebrow and one on my cheek under my eye a little..I ckeck my swollen eye the right one.it become better thanks to my hair its hideen .My hair sloping prefectly on my swollen eye.

.it's too soft and nice.

the only soft and nice thing in me.

it's also heavy like my breathes right now

.like every day. Every morning .the same questing come to my mind . I look at my reflection in the mirror with so empty eyes.

Why im i still alive ?

"What's there to live for? "