Anger

So because I deal with BPD and I fail to have emotional regulation I decided to try and write describing the emotions that I do feel

There is no such thing as a little angry.

I am snappy and spiteful,

I am hateful and full of vengeance.

My words are daggers and my tongue is a knife

and I will slice you in half quicker than you can blink.

I don't know what triggered the anger most of the time,

or maybe I know but I just don't care.

All I know in that moment is that you have hurt me,

and you will pay.

My temper is quick and I will feel the anger with such an intensity

that every nerve in my body will be on edge,

waiting for a slip up,

waiting to lash out.

and I'm hopeful that maybe this release will offer some serenity,

some sort of okay-ness and that maybe,

just maybe, I will be able to compose myself once again,

but then again do I ever find composure?

Or am I simply just waiting to burst?

Never knowing which emotion may surface.