Loss-aphobic

For a special someone

I feel it slipping slowly

Never will it be mine to control
Every day this monster grows
Every night I hold you close
Doesn't matter that you're not really there

You hold me together and crack my armor
Of all the people you confuse me the most
Until I die it will probably stay that way

Being trapped in my own skin
Under layers of masks
Truth is I made my own prison

Maybe someday this monster will die
Or I'll find some sanity
Someday I'll hopefully get myself together
These thoughts are what hurts though

Out of my control
Fear that swallows me

Almost breaking
Lying face down in a pillow
Looking into myself

I try to fix myself for your sake and mine

Looking back this hurt could have all been avoided
Of course, I usually complicate things...
Very often I break what need not be broken
Every time it's a big mistake

You stand beside me
Obviously pushing back when I push you away
Underneath I want you to stay

Wonder why I'm Like this?
If I knew, I'd tell you.
Look, I don't know how to say it
Love is a hard concept for me
It's kinda like math
And i suck at it
Maybe I can make up the difference in the end

Don't think you messed up, please
All I want is for you to have the best
Yet you want me, and yes, I love you for it.

Author's Note

Be Mine?

Reviews

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

Such a heartfelt poem. I like the poem.. someone special inspired this is well shown , very expressive.

Love is a hard concept for me
It's kinda like math
And i suck at it
Maybe I can make up the difference in the end

I like this verse so much ,,

Chloe