How Come

Paradox

May be there are no words to speak
when the silence is the only way to explain
because all the words I'm trying to seek
can't express the heart with the brain
it feels like losing control
it's driving me insane
because the heart can only tell about released soul
and the brain is the sign of the ruling chain
it feels new
it feels so strange
it feels wrong somehow
how come I'm in love without pain !!!
how come the heart can walk on the same direction of the mind !!!
it feels like i can see the sky though i am blind !!!
it feels like I'm still living in the dream though I'm now awake !!!
i know that I'm a day dreamer but ...
this time i cant find the miserable reality break !!!
i feel there's something wrong
may be because i didn't use to feel right !!!
specially when i know that I'm thinking right !!!

i know about keeping the thoughts away from me
to let the feelings control my night
or let the logic take control to stop the heart
how dare my mind give my heart the green light !!!!!!!
I'm confused , I'm totally lost
if I'm feeling this love so where is the painful cost ????!!!!
i just cant believe what happend
this is against all the rules
or is it like braking the habit ????
i just wanna cry
i thought that i believe but i didn't know that i can fly !!!
i used to dream but never thought about it when it become true !!!
i thought i know about love but it seems something new !!!
if you are in love with me how come I'm in love with you ??!!!
i dreamed about the flowing river but Ive never thought it will actually flow !!!
 i just don't know
but I'm feeling it real !!!
as its the 1st time for me to feel
like the dream of dancing with you under the rain on the beach
on the tones of the piano as I'm a deaf person who has just started to hear
it feels like dreams i didn't dare to even dream , not reach !!!
I'm so sorry i just cant believe
i just thought that ill die before braking free

my majesty
please forgive me if i still cant use my words
because the joy of seeing your face is too much to leave me a space to express
forgive me for talking about nothing while losing myself within your eyes
i just wasn't prepared to feel like this

my majesty
i know that my words are still weak
and my pen still cant speak
may be because i didn't know that the sun can meet the moon
but now i know the reason why , so ill find a way to deal with it Isa soon.