The Farewell Poem

"You're a bright child who will keep prevailing". 

I've been told that throughout the years.

But why is it that I keep on failing? 

Why do I keep shedding these tears? 

Making others laugh was so much fun.

But why is it that now I feel nothing? 

I feel like my life is close to being done. 

But for now I live here with everything. 

I remember old faces it brings me a smile.

Even knowing those old faces think I'm dead. 

I'm stuck in this huge mountain of denial. 

Yet I am still here living on a thread. 

My stories just keep on self repeating. 

I'm being cast aside and left behind. 

This heart of mine is slowly breaking. 

I am clueless with my pathetic stupid mind. 

This is my farewell poem to you all. 

As I write this poem I'm dying from inside. 

I've wished for a miracle yet I still hit the wall. 

False excuses to let my constant sins slide. 

Deep memories are letting me take the fall. 

Salvation left to zero with no suggestions. 

This is my farewell poem to you all. 

But before that I'll leave these questions. 

Would I've stopped being so childish? 

Would my dreams be left as a wish? 

Would I've I ever know what's love? 

Would I've ever flown high like a dove? 

Would I've become anyone in life? 

Would've reality continue cut me like knife?  

I chose not to stay around nor take a sigh. 

Thank you everyone and now I say goodbye.