Dreamer

so yeah I just needed to get this out and it lacks a lot of creativity, I know. This kinda sucks I just needed to get this out, even though this kind of sucks, it's the truth. HO!

I've never opened up myself to anyone as much as I opened to you, the first time

You were the last thing I expected

I silently watched you, the first time

That was before you even noticed me

I watch you, I watch all of you

and I labeled you

You were smart

Too smart

You were not like me

Then you talked to me

and I lost everything

I lost despair, I lost creativity, I lost sadness

I listened to your antics

I lost time

You were like all of them

but I wanted you to be different

I want you to be just as I wanted you

Just as I had imagined someone like you

I want to hold your hand

and tell you stories

You listen to me, not like them

Not like anybody else

I'm opening up to you and I'm not scared

I'm not afraid of you

I'm not afraid for myself

What are you doing?

I don't understand 

I just know that I want to see you again

I feel alive

I feel a little bit of me

I'm starting to obsess

With this feeling of letting go

I like that I'm not afraid

 . . . . . At least for now