Still Waiting...

i think this guy really likes me cuz i catch him looking from the corner of my eye. but im still too scared to talk to him without knowing for sure...

Okay, there seems to be a problem here
You distract me when your gone, but not when your near
It could be obsession, I'll admit it to a point
You cause me to shake and tremble to the joint

It makes you an important asset to my daily routine
I watch you leave with someone else, spilling tears you've never seen
I caught you looking though, does that mean something?
My passion burns deep, do you fall within that fierce ring?

I've got some time to figure you out
Is this love I feel? That's something I won't doubt
I'm listening to my heart, do you hear it too?
It's saying something, calling out to you

Listen and you may learn things you never knew about me
I'm capable of loving, caring, hoping; just  listen and you'll see
Just give me a chance, I've waited too long
If you leave my life, then the blade will sing my death song

No one would miss me, but you'd miss the chance
Sure I'm different, but don't judge at first glance
I've never felt this way before so look beneath the icy layer
So I've got my flaws, but for you, I'll always be there

For you and always you, I'll be by your side
If that's what you want, I'll be, forever your personal guide
I need you to answer though, to hear your okay first
I'll never say, but you've driven me to starvation and thirst

You have absolutely no idea what you're doing to me
Lust and love combined, it fills me with such glee
This such secret remains hidden deep within my soul
The heartless demon and selfishness is my role

It's the only way to protect myself from the throbbing pain
Rejection hurts so I don't risk it, I must keep myself sane
As emo as it sounds, you make me slit my wrist
My skin wants your lips, to be gently kissed

How long must I wait for you to express how you're feeling?
Your stares, your shaking and looking down has my mind reeling.....

Author's Note

*Sigh* young love sucks but what can you do right? What do you think I should do?