My Path, Sociopath

What I did to what I became.

It's strange in
It's strange out
Never been right
Never been wrong
Never considered normal
Why was I never functional?

I'm different I see
I'm different I know
But what is it
That makes me flow?

Alone, Again, Content

It started with you
I was starting it all
The trust finally gained
Years spent, now your mine

Manipulated, sucked you dry
My good deeds rehashed
Your mistakes like an open book
Reminding you of what you did to me

Continuous praise
Made sure I was
Til I caught a glimpse of new prey

Revenge complete
Cut you off
Now your new, the second
I played what I usually did
Shy, quiet, serious
Attracted you in an odd twist
So easy, you under my command
There was no challenge

Preyed upon your insecurities
Cut you off
Left my two other options open
At last

My best friends
So close, so dear
Always there, always here
Where I would be without them

We'll start with you
Such a challenge
You weren't easy
Zone of friends I'll admit I was in
Though it was with you I aligned

I've seen our growth through the years
Picking on each other, joking around
To picking each other up when we were down
To what we are now

We are merely now beneficial
Kiss me, kiss you
Benefits, I don't mind
However, you hurt me
And I will eventually drain you
I will consume you
It already started

But for last, we'll talk about you
My softest spot
My weakness
My close friend
You have not hurt me yet
As feelings are, you don't deserve it
But I'm playing both sides

Done with commitment
I tell you everything
Will I tell you this
What if I told you I was sociopathic
What if I told you I'm a controller
Playing the board I now control

I struggled what was in me
I wondered what was inside me
Why did I get satisfaction?
Why do I enjoy praise?
I am cocky, narcissistic
But I never knew I was parasitic

Checked one off
Checked two off
Last two remaining
Are so unaware of what I do
It's a subconscious dealing
I'm aware of it now
It's really not on purpose
It's just what I've become.