{Prologue} Internal struggles

      “Leave me alone

God, let me go

I'm blue and cold

Black sky will burn”

V

 

oice I: ‘What have we done?

Have we gone too far?’

 

Voice II: ‘What are you talking about?

He deserved it! He was a ruthless murderer! He torched the entire village, can't you remember?!’

 

Voice I: ‘Yes, I know! But yet who are we to judge him like that? You saw what he was, what he went through… I…’

 

Voice II: ‘Hey, don't get too soft here! Humans lie you know! It's their nature to hide their mistakes thinking they'll stay under bridge forever, he could simply make it up.’

 

Voice I: ‘What do you mean by “make it up”?

What is wrong with you?

Are you blind or something?!?

No, not this time, not this one, you were there too, you saw the truth with your own eyes, how can you deny it?’

 

Voice II: ‘Even so, all of this “truth” don't justify what he did, it doesn't excuse him to kill and torture people; to treat others like slaves, even if he really went through all of that, still we don't know everything about him, he could’ve done something really bad as far as I'm concerned, thus deserved the perpetual hell he was threw into. At the end he sinned! And he sinned badly! Thence, he is where the sinners must be! Don't tell me you forgot his horrible deeds.’

 

Voice I: ‘No, I didn't! But don't you think we made a tremendous blunder? That we have been driven by marred and blind emotions and facts until we lost the path of righteousness, we had everything we needed to achieve justice, but yet we… didn't … Ah…Isn't this entire incident racking your conscience?’

 

Voice II: ‘Not in any way, he was a monster, a raging inferno of lust, hatred and greed, a killing machine with no heart, he killed them all… Justify that!’

 

Voice I: ‘I know! I know! I know!!

Yet who are we to play god…

You saw what he had, what he suffered, it's just not right…’

 

Voice II: ‘So you're telling me it's Okay..?

That all of his massacres and savage murders should go unpunished? He belongs there where we left him; screaming among the...’

 

Voice I: ‘No, it can't be right; this can't be the true face of justice, we simply punished the wrong guy.’

 

Voice II: ‘Well, you stay like this, in this pathetic way of thinking, but believe me, we did the right thing; we snatched justice from the depth of darkness…’  

 

Voice I: ‘Huh! You surly are an eloquent speaker, but your acts were far from laudable.’

 

Voice II: ‘Wow! Look who's talking!

You were the one who…”

 

Maséro: “Silence!!

Silence you two! Stop yelling inside of me!

Your continuous wrangle is shredding my sanity!!

It's enough already...

I can't take it anymore...

It's just too much…

I'm tired of all of this...

I don't know what's right or wrong anymore...

In the beginning, I was blinded by rage and hatred…

By the ghastly emotions of the bloody sights I witnessed, I… I just wanted to avenge those who were killed with no guilt, but when his past started to clear ahead of me, and I knew the error of my ways...I...I...I don't know anymore...

 

 

This is my story...

I'm only telling it to you hoping you might help me out of this vortex I'm in. Out from the bottom of this dismal, dark dungeon’