Suicide

Kill me i can't take it no more

I cant take this anymore
seeing the road in front of me
my past behind in the shadows
why cant i step out and face my fears
or do i have to keep them bottled up inside
silently..

everything that i have ever wanted i have gained
yet lost with one lilttle action of hate
i know im not perfect
i know what people expect of me
how they laugh at the fact that i dont know why i feel this way
im tired
sick
i want to rest but too scared to shut my eyes
when trying to forget all that is lost
i find its right here beside me
its hauting how i cant fight it
how i just give in to what i hate
to what i yearn
to what i fear..

memories always cut the skin so deep
more then what i have done out of my own actions
blood is spilled, it stains the carpet, it bears my hands
why do i stay in the past?
i dont need it anymore...i dont want it...WHY CANT YOU JUST TAKE IT AWAY!!!!!!!????
do i fear what i hate? or do i yearn what i fear?
either way i know one thing
..there are times for tears and fears...this isnt one of them...hauting..is it not?

Reviews

[Beautifully Tragic xPoe..]

I know exactly what you feel, I've been going through it lately myself. I've been encouraging people like this to write it out rather than doing anything and I'm suggesting the same to you. Life is rough, that I know suffering from it for many years, but I don't think it worth giving up which sounds strange coming from me. But you're not alone. Millions of people suffer the thorns of life - its not a bouquet of roses, unfortunately. Please don't give up on yourself. And if you ever need a friend, don't hesitate to message me.


Rayne