What Am I Supposed To Do?

In case you can't tell, this is a poem to/about certain people. 3, to be exact. Let's just say all of our lives are going badly at the moment and none of us can do anything about it. And, I seem to be making things worse. At least for some. I'm depressed,

What am I supposed to do?
The rest of the world has no clue.
I am dying inside, can nobody see?
I was once so full of glee.
Now, everything keeps going downhill.
I want to kill everyone, it would be my only thrill.
To watch them all fall to the ground,
Their bodies are on which I would pound.
Everyone standing in my way,
Everyone making OUR decisions who are just gay.

What am I supposed to do?
She has not even the slightest clue.
She doesn’t care, I am not her concern.
Never mind that I’ve always been here for her, perhaps she should burn.
To watch that gorgeous flesh tear off her skin,
The screams of agony causing the orgasm to begin.
It would be the first and only time she would please me,
She will pay for making me angry.

What do you want me to do?
I know you know, though you pretend not to.
Never mind my words, they don’t matter.
It’s only my heart you ever wanted to shatter.
I never meant anything, at least not the way I wish.
I know what you were doing, and all it did was cause me anguish.
You know this bother me, you don’t care.
She is your girl, I’m no longer there.
Ignore me, I don’t matter.
You certainly are one very good actor.

I wish there was something I could do.
You deserve better than the way they treat you.
You work hard, you deserve so much better.
If I were there, I’d be your own personal beater.
I’d kill them all for what they are.
If only you didn’t live so far.
I love you, as you already know.
I guess we'll just have to go with the flow.
I hope to see you in the future.
Maybe we could be together, without an and all the current pressure.

Author's Note

From the last line of the first stanza, I'd like to inform all reading this, that I have nothing against gay's. I'm bisexual, in all honesty. I merely needed a word that rhymed there.