Return to High-School

Narrated vignette about the 'casting' of the high-school 'memory' in terms of life's delicate balance between thoughts...and dates.

A vignette/portrait of the 'psyche-impact' of high-school dance, inspired loosely by Splendor in the Grass. Enjoy, 

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In my diary, I wrote about my special 'casted' memory of my social/high-school memory or conscious experience of wandering around that academic doll-house of individual and group interactions training for the adult 'real-world' when I was between the ages of 14-17. I thought about the things I enjoyed, the people I met, the things I learned, and the things that haunted me in what is certainly a typical idea about the orientations of modern dance.

I thought about myself and how I looked/felt during those special Halloween high-school dances/events and how it casts a shadow of consciousness for my current/modern Halloween trick-or-treat activity with my kids in North America. I thought about how I 'thought' of myself and my goals/directions and how these 'thoughts' inform my 'current' self-image of absorbed social interaction or expectation pyramids and playspace indulgences. After all, the high-school 'environment' entreats your ability/interest in coordinating or applying memory with or to dance!

I thought about my high-school sweetheart (Sandy) and what she meant to me while I was a young man and cheering for Duke basketball or doing long-distance fitness running or playing piano or competing in debate-club and winning the trophy for Eastern in South Jersey. I thought about the music I loved and the strange or nice clothes I wore or my hairstyle or my experience with homework and weekend social activity. Mostly, I thought about Sandy, and what she 'gave' me --- in terms of a 'wrought' sense of 'immortal' design or memory.

Today, I plan my new family-life with my loved-ones and prepare Thanksgiving dinners with my family and/or my sister's family in North America. We prepare wonderful dishes and coordinate wonderful activities/time and enjoy American football on TV and wear nice clothes and enjoy nice conversations. I'm seeing a psychiatrist now who helps balance my Catholic faith with my sense of place (New England). After graduating from college, what I learned most-of-all was a 'sense' of family and setting in 'orchestrating' the living experience of dreams-deferred or dreams-designed!

What I told one of my friends at my art-center in New England was the idea of casting neo-classical renderings of human-physique poses in Ancient Greek poses (e.g., Athena/Aphrodite) would reflect an individual's sense of grounded perceptions/feelings of social imagery of perfect development or life itself or the 'nakedness' of hygiene or self-orientation. Art helps me/us balance privacy with publicity and memory with conversation, and while sharing one of my painting representing a living frankness with one of my peers, I realized what I tried to capture was a sense of the 'memory' of human contact.

In conclusion, remembering my 'time' in high-school was really a 'matter' of casting human memory in terms of the social experience/consciousness regarding designed optimism or anticipated complexity! I wanted to remember my 'sweetheart' Sandy or my time with long-distance running/fitness and 'fit' it into my model of current-life Thanksgiving preparations/energy/enthusiasm. I thought about that delicate 'life-balance' between memory...and destiny!

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