In My Mind...

In my mind and that of others, there are too many things buzzing around

In my mind...

Sounds of war are throughout,

Fighting of two armed force,

Domination is what they want,

A battle of light and dark,

Its me they want to coerce,

To leave me with a good or bad mark.

In my mind...

Is a large library of old and young books,

Made of facts and thoughts and truths,

Although the truths are hidden in every cranny and nook,

I cannot reach them easily, they are not to be found,

And this singular truth does not soothe,

I make an angry, exasperated, and distressed sound.

In my mind...

A person approaches me looking friendly,

And I soon trust them deeply when suddenly,

The person pulls out a gun and promises not to hurt me,

And then he shoots me repeatedly and evilly,

And I am full of pain, living in complete distrust of everyone,

I cannot let anyone shoot me again with a gun.

In my mind...

Is a world of tempered glass,

Vitrified by own soul and fire,

Reflecting my dreams back towards my eyes,

But just when my dreams were about to pass,

My world of glass was destroyed and my situation became dire,

And I could not see my dreams, only broken lies.

In my mind...

A mirror stands in front of the entire world,

It shows us all who we really are,

And it shows people who I am too,

And they tell me what's wrong with me, apparently I make them hurl,

And they hit all kinds of ways and leaves me with scars,

And I cry because I see myself the same way in front of all of you.

In my mind...

Is a workshop with all kinds of projects being made,

A place of creation, where my hard work comes to be,

It makes me happy, but it should be said,

People don't appreciate the effort, that I'm like The Giving Tree,

And I realize maybe I'm just not good enough,

And its my projects that I decide to shove.

In my mind...

I live in a luxurious hotel suite,

A whole space to myself, no one else!

And I try to enjoy the peace and quiet,

But unfortunately life is not so sweet,

For I am completely alone and sad, this feeling is intense,

And I wish I had company to help make this time a riot.

In my mind...

Is a beautiful girl waiting for me to accept her,

To love her, to care for her, to make her feel special,

And this makes me happy, but soon...

Our relationship becomes a tiny bit prickly, like it's stuck with burrs,

And to her, its enough to make our relationship inconsequential,

And I'm stuck holding the bag and wishing for her to come back, wishing to the moon.

In my mind...

A catalog of pictures is in the center,

Full of well-developed colors and images,

Looking so very iridescent in their quality,

But in truth they show off my failures that in my life have entered,

The mistakes I made that haunt me in all kinds of stages,

And I focus on just those and I lose all pretense of jollity.

In my mind...

I am a well-lived in house full of a beautiful family,

They are living so happily and well,

And they are very much blessed,

But they hurt me when they stomp so angrily,

They leave me all the time in shambles, and I can tell,

My life is just a big mess.

Reviews

[747]

Sad to say how accurate this is. In each scenario you start off happy, excited, full of life and colour; but by the end you're disappointed, deflated, resigned, and dark. It's funny how our minds so seldom create a good situation out of a bad one, but are constantly ripping our happy thoughts & memories to shreds of self-hate and fear.

Great poem, really well done.

[Brelove]

I feel like i have just watched a great film. speechless of greatness

[Lost & Lonely]

I love the imagery in this poem. You can really feel the emotion behind it.