0.5 LoveA Poem by Oddesy0.5 Love?....
Nothing remarkable, nothing stood out You were just another person in my life Nothing to indicate what would come, the good
and the bad…. The exquisite torture that my future would hold
Cruelly hidden from me Blind, a newborn not yet schooled in these
games
Months passed, and we had quickly become good
friends Without even realizing it I wanted to spend
more and more time around you Your personality infectious Your smile bringing brightness to my day Your smirk frightening my heart into a run Tender and caring, yet strong And then it hit me…. A force so strong it left me paralyzed
Then confusion set in, the guilt and the pain a wound so profound, so traumatic To and fro To and fro Pulled in every direction The battle- one of the mind and the heart It’s wrong! These feelings cannot be! IT grips, tearing, deeper and deeper I cannot give in The pain overwhelms, the grief crushes And then the realization hits…..
He does not understand, he does not seem to
care My journey through pain has only just begun Can he comprehend my feelings? My world is duller, emptier than it was before his laughter is gone, his light gone from my
world I miss my friend……
Each day my heart breaks a little bit more Time he says…. How long is long enough? Will he realize my torment? Punished for something that was beyond my
control Made to feel dirty, a perversion of society The silence leaves wounds that fester “Imagined” slights pervade Pervasive in their onslaught The hurt creeps in and takes hold
I fell for the wrong person……
A simple sighting rips open old wounds My heart aches for what once was And fights against what now is…. It is suffocating and debilitating Nothing fits and nothing seems right Why must I feel this way? Why am I so weak
I am left empty and afraid Afraid to lose more of those close to me The pattern is consistent….
Just tired…..
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Added on July 14, 2015 Last Updated on July 14, 2015 Tags: love, poetry, sadness, heartache, life, heartbreak, creativity, writing, loneliness, sad AuthorOddesyJohannesburg, Randburg, South AfricaAboutEcologist, lover of nature and the outdoors. more..Writing
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