"Old Wounds."

For him.

I cannot do this, anymore.

 

Because I've smarted the little

blemishes on our record, I've

picked them out and realized

just where this is all going.

 

Oh I knew this all along.

The beginning was just that,

a beginning,

and I needed you to tell me

that if I have to work this hard,

I should move on.

 

And I needed you to show me

that, no matter what I do, I can

not create something that isn't

there, but could have been in

another lifetime.

 

I need you to point out that all

the should have's, could have's,

would have's, in world will not

make one bit of a difference, if

it is not enough, or if it is just not

where it needs to be.

 

You were my lesson, dearest.

The hardest so far.

 

And...

 

I cannot do this anymore.

 

Because you were the perfect one.

The glove that fit.

The match to my half.

and any other cliche I can dream up.

 

And, it hurts too much to love you,

you know?

 

It hurts to know I am just never going

to be those things to you.

It hurts to watch you fall in love, right

before my eyes, when your love was

all I ever wanted.

 

You're never going to feel the same.

You'll never write about me with such

emotion, even when you don't.

You'll never look for me, or want to

hear my voice.

You'll never need me, like I need you.

 

Unfortunately, I wasn't the right fit.

I was the "you came damn close".

I was the "you're so wonderful, but...".

 

So now I give to you the white....

 

 

 

 

 

Space to forget, and to be relieved.

This isn't for you, not now.

 

 

But...I cannot do this, anymore.

 

Reviews

[Rachel DeHart]

"Because you were the perfect one.
The glove that fit.
The match to my half.
and any other cliche I can dream up."

This whole poem speaks so loudly to me, but those lines scream.
I know all of these feelings and I love how you capture them here.

[Dawn Jones]

I love the sentement of not being able to do it anymore... I know where you are and I myself suffer it often. So in love and so far from love all at the same time. Never knowing what it should feel like because you just never fit them right. *hugs*