Unrequited Love

My first *real* poem, and probably my best. It's certainly my favorite...

 

I try to get you off my mind, but the sight of you makes my heart race; I try to tell myself you're gone, but my heart says anything is possible...

 

            What cruel twist of fate would lead my heart to you, when we are like day and night? You a spring of life; I a raging animal; complete opposites, yet my soul longs four your touch, your voice like a sweet melody, yet I am deaf, longing to hear; your heart like a peaceful mural, yet I am blind, longing to see...

 

I see you constantly in my mind, yet I know I can't have you; I see you every day and night, my heart knows you're the one I’ve been waiting for...

 

My mind racing, insane thoughts forming in my mind, knowing they can never live, my fantasies as unreachable as the farthest star, yet love knows no boundaries…

 

How I could have loved others before you, when my true love is in front of me now? Standing before me is the epitome of beauty, perfection made human, and yet…

 

I can never have you, for a dark secret encircles my heart, my mind, a knowledge binds as a chain of steel, an evil so powerful it controls my all; a power so consuming, enclosing my mind, my heart, my all; a secret, a dark secret so overwhelming it consumes like a wildfire on a dry day, destroying everything…

 

Your heart can never be mine, for it belongs to another; a being like the perfect-seeming rose, yet encircled in thorns, in darkness, in secrets; its tongue biting like the two-edged sword, its heart cold, cruel…

 

Yet still, like my heart to yours, you are ensnared in its net, the gate of deception locks behind you, you are past the point of no return, yet I know love, true love, will prevail over evil...

 

My heart prepares for a raging battle, a war brewing in the time I spend away from the prize my heart longs for, and the evil I fight to overcome; holding it in its clutches...

 

Entering the labyrinth of thoughts, fears, secrets, surrounding my mind, I search for the weapon my soul needs, grabbing the torch of experience to guide me through my memories...

 

Searching for when I felt most like fleeing to a bottomless abyss in the years I spend in this life I now live, cringing at the thought of the demons that made this life full of agony, I make my way through the years...

 

I find myself at a door, an impassible obstacle to the body and mind; but love is the key to any lock, any solution...

 

My footsteps echo in the empty room, the chamber of thought; and it comes to me: Lies, guilt, fear, gossip, taunts, emotional weapons stronger than the sword, crushing any spirit, any hope, any dream.

 

These are the key to the battle I now face, the emotional battle before me. Each becoming an amulet, a talisman I can carry out of the room to the battle, and yet...

 

I cannot. I cannot sink so low as to break others down just to satisfy my heart’s desire. I would give up all hope of a lasting relationship before....

 

That’s it. Hope. I survived the tortures of this place through hope.

 

Now I realize that, even though this being, less and less horrid-seeming, may have you, I can still imagine us together, forever; and I can hope for a miracle; but for now, I will be satisfied with lurking in the shadows, admiring you through the eyes of an actor, a calm being, hiding my true emotions inside...

 

And yet, no one knows, and if they do, they wouldn’t tell...... hopefully.

 

 

Author's Note

Let me know if you see anything blaringly obvious that my reluctance to change history has glazed over.

Reviews

[chloe cruz]

This was really beautiful, the flow was great... and I can relate so much. The feelings are so pronounced, it made me think back... feel the blast of my emotions come back to me, though they never left. Again, beautiful.