On My Own

The silence
after a pillow covered scream
shades of burgundy wine
stain satin sheets, once bright white.  

Little papercuts stretched from head to toe,
painful droplets of a slow, shriveled emptiness 
oh how it hurts, but I can't move,
it seems I'll never escape this place.

Haunted by a thousand empty faces,
ghosts and demons that break everything
why won't the sun come out today?
Only the darkness comes out to play.

And as the scars begin to close
I watch my foggy breath, the only sign,
that I'm still alive...
somehow thankful to the test of time.

I've survived it all,
but these ghosts still follow me,
their heavy weight shackled to my heels,
as I lumber forward, a stumble, and I'm down.

Arms shaking, I lift my weight again,
so tired... heavy eyes just want to sleep.
Knees that buckle, tearing the flesh,
yet somehow I rise again.
And again, and again... and... again,
each time a painful reminder of where I've been,
everyone wondering why I go alone, when I go away,
I have the answer for you today.

I've seen men and my closest friends crushed,
as they drag my feet along, and fall themselves.
This burden is mine, and mine alone...
because if I can't shake them on my own,
I'm lost to every other soul.

Reviews

[SquinklaPsyOps]

I think you have a very interesting premise here that is completely brilliant.

Your concept of flow is very good and your descriptions are excellent.

[Aramey]

Thank you, I'm glad you stopped in to read and comment :) Good description is something I strive very hard to achieve.

[Inspiring Writer]

Nice flow of ink, liked some lines your used deeply. Great job.

[Aramey]

Thank you, I'm always glad to hear that someone stopped in and enjoyed.

[walkingman117]

I like this line: 'Only the darkness comes out to play.'

[Aramey]

And a funny thing, because that line flowed into my mind easily. Thank you :)

[Everett DeValle]

You are very welcome, Aramey.

[Everett DeValle]

DEEP...poignant and beautifully told, Aramey.

[Aramey]

Thank you for the kind words and for taking a moment to read.