NEVER FELT WANTED

YEARS STILL PASSES ME

STILL FRUSTRATED BECAUSE OF A LIFE 

I HAD TO BECOME ONE WITH

CANT BEAT MYSELF UP FOR IT

WASNT MY FAULT 

THE ONES THAT CARED DIDNT CARE

WHY I SAY THAT IS THEY ONLY CARED FOR WAT WAS BEST FOR ME

NOT WHAT MY HEART WANTED

ALL MY LIFE I FELT SEPARATION 

THAT SEPARATION BROUGHT ALONG ALOT OF ANGER AND TEARS

BEING SOMEWHERE THAT I DIDNT WANT TO BE

BEING AROUND PEOPLE I DIDNT WANT TO BE APART OF

GROWING UP WITH FALSE PARENTS THAT TOOK A TOLL ON ME

I THANK THEM BUT ANTI LOVE I DIDNT NEED IN MY LIFE

ALL I WANTED WAS THE WOMAN THAT GAVE ME BIRTH

I REALLY DIDNT HAVE A ROLE MODEL 

OR ANYONE TO LOOK UP TOO

I HAD TO FIND WAYS TO REACTIVE MYSELF

FIND WHO AM I HOW SHOULD I BECOME SOMETHING

HOW SHOULD I START

SHOULD I MIMIC OTHERS

SHOULD I BECOME ONE WITH A GROUP AND FIND MYSELF THERE

BUT IT WOULDNT WORK ONE THING I KNEW ABOUT ME

I WAS ANTI SOCIAL AND SHY 

SO I HAD TO FIND ANOTHER WAY

TIMES WAS HARD 

THE TEARS MY EYES CREATED WAS MY ONLY FRIEND

SEE ME ONLY UNDERSTAND WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH 

LIKE WHAT DOES REALLY BEING HELD FEELS LIKE 

WHEN WILL I KNOW ITS THE REAL THING

HOW WILL I KNOW I ACTUALLY RECEIVED A NEVER BREAKING PROMISE

OF NOT BEING HURT AGAIN 

TIRED OF RECEIVING INJURIES 

I HAVE RAN OUT OF INVISIBLE BANDAGES 

I BELIEVE NEXT TIME THE FINAL TIME

THE SENSITIVE CARING LOVING ME 

WILL BLEED OUT AND SEEP INTO THE EARTH 

THAT BLOOD WILL BECOME A SEED

THAT SEED WILL GROW TO A FLOWER

STRONG BEAUTIFUL

THAT WILL SYMBOLIZE OF WHAT I USE TO BE

AS I CONTINUE TO WALK A STEADY PACE

WHOS ARMS WILL WRAP AROUND ME

AND END MY JOURNEY OF EYES GAZING UPON MINES

SAYING "IM HERE"