HeroA Story by A.M LeoneA man who lives his entire life unknowingly in a prison of his own making, the most unlikely of people possessing the key.Hero “Give me anything on you of value, and if I were you I would
do it as quickly as possible.” A voice from the shadows commanded, a bone
chilling click following immediately. Gripped with
fear my hands nervously and unsteadily undid the leather band on his watch
before I moved to empty my pockets. I
threw everything including my wallet and phone on the floor in front of me. Everything inside me told me to scream and
shout for help, the rational part on the other hand revealing the truth. No one’s gonna come to help me, put their
neck on the line for a complete stranger. “You’re not moving as fast as I am sure you could be. Do you
not actually value your life?” The man said, the arrogance in his tone giving
off a vibe that he had already decided my fate. Fate, a
funny word that has hundreds of meanings all varying around the people who use
it. Right now, as I stand here, throwing
the rest of my valuables to the floor; Hearing people walk past the alley where
I'm sure some had seen what I was going through. My fate was what this man held in his
hands. On his whim, he could choose my
fate; to live or to die. It wasn't until
he was sure that I had given him everything- Including my shoes. - that he spoke again. “Thank you very much for your kindness and generosity, now
back slowly out of the alley and go home, you look tired. Oh, and don't worry about your wallet, I get
it back to you soon.” His voice menacing
and full of double meanings. I followed
his orders despite my knees trembling uncontrollably; when I was clear of the
alley and several feet to the side I collapsed against the wall of a
building. In shame, I held my head low
whimpering into my hands as people walked around and over me. The occasional nice person would throw me
money, which again I shame fully collected.
I had no idea how long I had sat there, but when I did finally get up my
legs were stiff, the muscles sore like I just ran ten miles. I took a deep breath before limping my way
home. Without
enough money for a cab, I was forced to limp my way home in a walk of shame.
For several miles, I limped slowly, each step a reminder of my shame. Was it my fate to live powerless while others
extorted this weakness. Stupid
Hollywood, glamorizing the man who takes on the criminal while putting down the
ninety percent of the people who lack the training and the courage to stand up
against fear and lethal weaponry. When I
finally reached my apartment, I sighed in relief before limping my way up
several flights of stairs. It was an odd
feeling that I was left with as I made my way up the stairs; Almost
redeeming. I unlocked the door to my
apartment shutting the door behind me. I
threw my keys into the bowl on the table next to the door, before I took off
and hung up my jacket. To feel
completely helpless is an experience that can do nothing but change you. It does this in one of three ways. The first is it can make you more fearful,
turn you into a shut in or neurotic. The
second is it makes you accept and begin a training to help change you into
someone you want to be. The third is
like denial. You seek out fights to
prove your no longer fearful but in actuality you are simply running from those
fears. Hero's are
forged from the second, but there is a difference between movies and real
life. In a movie if you don't dodge the
blank someone says cut. In life, the
consequences are a little bit more permanent.
I turned on the T.V. as I collapsed onto the couch with a groan. My eyes no longer bothering to stay open,
soon sleeping through whatever hero movie was playing. As I slept I had a tortuous repeating dream,
reliving the horror over and over. Each
time with an alternate ending with a flashing light then nothingness. Each end had me waking up drenched in sweat
and my hands trembling, though less with each occurrence. I woke again
angry as I heaved myself off the couch, the muscles in my legs sore and almost
unbearable to move. Each step anger rose
within, a feeling never to be felt again.
I punched the wall as I made my way to my kitchen needing a drink of
water before heading to my bedroom to actually sleep. With all the
movies and shows that are being created and released to the world made me
believe that we were living in an age of hero's. That people might learn from the message and
transform into someone who would stand for someone weaker then themselves. To make the everyday man into one of
character and compassion. Optimism and
delusion keeps us moving forward in the world.
The thought that a cop or a person might stand and help us when we need
it. This is what the movies show us; the
ideal people, a facade. The truth is no
one is coming to save us, or risk their own lives without personal gain. It was with
this realization that I awoke the next morning.
I took several minutes to stretch before I rolled out of the bed and
onto the floor in a push up position.
Beginning a new morning routine, I began doing push-ups, a routine I
hadn't done since high school. I began
struggling at about six or seven, my determination pushing me to fifteen before
I collapsed; rolling on my back to begin doing my sit-ups. I wasn't outrageously out of shape. I was tall, thin and sometimes awkward and
-unrealized until last night- weak. I managed to
get up to twenty-five before the muscles in my abs ached to stop and forced me
to stop. I got to my feet and made my
way to the kitchen to eat. I got to
work late this morning- having to buy a new pair of shoes- my boss sitting in
my chair as he watched me enter the office.
He took a sip of his coffee before he put it down on top of the files on
my desk. As I walked towards him I heard
him address me. “So, you could imagine my surprise when I got to my office on
time, to review the Tames account, and surprise my most punctual account
adviser is nowhere to be seen, boy do I hope you have a good explanation.” Calvin Hail, the floor manager who dressed
and acted above his paygrade. He rose from
my seat as he waited for my explanation, smoothening out the wrinkle-less
material of his dull grey suit. “I had to buy a new pair of shoes, I'm sorry.” I said as I
heard snickering and laughter coming from around us. I watched as the anger visibly rose through
his expression. “You have ten minutes to get me the Tames account or you can
take the rest of the day off as well as every day that follows.” he snapped as
he turned around and quickly walked off towards his office. I sighed and laughed a little before hearing someone approach
me from behind. “How often are you late?”
he asked. A face with glasses that I had never seen before -more than
likely a new batch of employees- asked as I reached down and picked up the
'lost' Tames file. “This is my first time ever being late.” I said laughing
darkly as I began my walk towards his office. As
humiliating as it might have been to walk to the boss's office like he was the
principle, but oddly I was elated. I had
always feared being yelled at or chastised, afraid that my boss would fire me
if I made any waves or splashes... I
watched as co-workers flowed in and out and grow within the company while I sat
stagnant. In the same department at the
same desk since I was eighteen. Those less punctual and not even close to being
as hard working as me acknowledged while for a decade I sat and watched happy
for them. For too long
I had sat at my desk complacent in my own life, not even actually living. Should I ever meet that man who robbed me
again, I would probably thank him for freeing me from my own life. I knocked on Calvin's door; I knocked before
entering, only to see him sitting in his desk chair rocking restlessly. I entered the office calmly- A way I had
never imagined that I would have entered after getting screamed at. “So, I have to know, were you trying to make me look
bad? You know that I depend on you to
set the bar for others. You know be the
model employee. Your example guides
everyone who enters this floor.” he
paused for a moment to exhale as his rocking slowed. “Do you have the file for the Tames
account?” His fingers
began tapping against the arm rest as he waited for the account to be put on
his desk. I placed the file folder on
his desk as I watched him. His focus was
no longer on him but on the giant coffee ring in the center. His face contorted in anger as he rose to his
feet and slammed his hands hard on his desk. “This file has to be presented to the chief officer of this
floor, yet you expect me to present it with your morning coffee all over it.”
Calvin said, each word getting louder and angrier. I waited
till he was done before I responded; Ignoring his tirade wondering why this wasn’t
bothering me as much as I had thought that it would be. “Actually Mr. Hail, that is your coffee stain not mine. I don't actually drink coffee. When you sat at my desk this morning and put
your cup of coffee on the top of my files you left the stain . I can make you a new folder if you'd
like.” I tried desperately not to let a
smile break through the facade of indifference.
I watched as
Calvin shrank back and sat back in his chair, suppressing the rage I knew he'd
be feeling. This sight was almost enough
to crack through my clumsily created facade.
When he spoke again his voice was soft and dull. “Please, if it's not too much trouble could you make me
another folder cover for me then? I'm
gonna need the Thomson folder next by lunch.” He said as he stacked the files
on his desk. “It's already done, I can go get it to you with the new
folder cover.” I said as I turned to leave the office, shutting the door behind
me. The sound of
something blunt hit the door just after I closed it making me smile and chuckle
as I walked elatedly back to my desk. As
I sat back in my chair, I was filled with an emotion that I hadn't recognized. One that I hadn't felt in a long time- Not
since I took this job a decade ago. -
Pride. I printed a new label for
the Thomson account and stuck it in the center of the folder. Grabbing the
other file I slowly made my way back to Calvin's office, knocking only as a
courtesy I entered. I placed the folders
on his desk before turning around to leave.
As I started
walking to the office door I saw the plug for a broken sharpener behind the
door. A smirk crossed my face. “Thank you for being quick with the folder. How about you take one of those sick days
that I’m always paying you for.?” Calvin
said, his voice controlled as he spoke. I thought
for a moment, the direction that the day was turning was something that I
couldn't have expected. I figured why
not, since I’m doing everything else different today I might as well continue
with this decision. “Thank you very much sir, I think I will.” I said before turning and walking out of the
office. The last thing I saw was a smirk
on his face, that I saw only a few times.
Shrugging it off I made my way back to my desk. I grabbed my
jacket as I passed my desks and made my way to the elevators and in no time I
was outside. At first glance I saw
nothing but white light, but soon I saw everything, all while bathing in the
bright warm light of the sun. On a
normal day, I was at work just as the sun rose and left just as the sun
set. Weekends I stood home catching up
on work or watching T.V. As beautiful
as the city was at night it was even more so in the day. I began walking, though where my legs were
taking me I did not know. Hours flew
by like minutes as I walked around rediscovering the city I called home with
new eyes. The sun soon setting over the horizon, reflections in the buildings
windows extending the sun set. Too soon
it was time for me to make my way home.
Despite the sounds of horns and cars blaring through the city another
sound soon caught my ear. As I passed an alley on my right I saw a scene
similar to my own last night. I went into
the alley following after the whimpering voice of a young woman shaking in fear
at the sight of the same mugger that freed me.
This time I saw the man clearly, his face scarred up. His eyes a cold dead blue and calculating,
his build big and strong with a tanned complexion. A gun in his hand aimed at
the terrified woman's heart. “Stop” I shouted hoping someone might here as I ran to stand
in front of the woman, taking her place in front of the man. A chuckle erupted from him as he watched me. His eyes filling
slightly with life as he smiled down at me. “Didn’t I rob you yesterday?” he asked rhetorically. “Yes,
that's right, I promised you I would get you back your wallet and I.D.” he
laughed as he fished trough his pockets and pulled out my wallet. “Mr. Casey Carrow. A truly brave soul.” his
tone seemed to be only half mocking me. As he threw my wallet down in front of
me. The sky now darkened wept a mist of rain. A fitting end to such perfect day. I felt the woman behind me almost convulsing
in fear. She was a very brave woman. “Just leave us and no one would get hurt or arrested.” I said
as I held my hands up defensively. “You are a very interesting person Casey, but how about
this. I kill you, rob her and then I
will leave.” He said as he clicked back
the hammer. I only had a
few seconds to think and react and I knew in an instant what to do. I yelled at her to run as I pushed her back
before turning to the man and charging him.
With all the strength, I could muster I punched the man in the
face. I’d never hit someone before so I
wasn't prepared for the pain of possible breaking my hand or a knuckle or two. “Nice punch there, mister hero but now let me show you why heroes
only belong in the movies...” He said as he held up the gun, the last sound I
heard was the sound of an ear-splitting bang. My hand
moved to where warm life bled out, falling to my knees first then onto my
back. The shooter gone hiding back in
the shadows. The sound of a gunshot, the
only thing that would draw a person to a scene.
Always too late to lend a hand, but the first to offer condolences. As the crowd began to form the only person
next to me the woman who I had saved, crying as she leaned over me. It was hard
to look at her, she had a warm light glowing around her, the warmth that was quickly
draining from me was found in abundance in her.
I tried hard to focus through my suffocating body to speak, unable to
get anything more than words. “Live...” with those words my consciousness faded away. I watched as
the man in front of me- the man who risked and traded his life for my own. For
a stranger died in front of me. His only
request that I live. I couldn't do
anything but cry as the rain began to pour as the sound of sirens grew closer. © 2017 A.M Leone |
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